I'm not lost, I'm just a traveler.

jupiterlejano — Tue, 07 Jun 2011 17:44:37 GMT

Hi, this journal just stopped functioning. If you want to add me on my new journal send me a message.

jupiterlejano — Fri, 24 Dec 2010 16:47:59 GMT

I'm planning on making ADIML/DAD christmas special (lol). Let's see if I can get it done for Sunday. Wish me luck!
Oh and I know I've been a terrible friend here (everyone's at tumblr it seems) but for everyone who's still here at livejournal and checking me once in a while: Merry Christmas and New Year! :)

Find me @ greenmedusa.tumblr.com :D

jupiterlejano — Sat, 18 Dec 2010 10:22:35 GMT

I'm so excited because my mom got me a new camera for christmas and my friends and I fooled around with some lights because we have nothing better to do.

I had some problems a few weeks ago and I was feeling kind of depressed so I focused my attention in other people and things and it helped a lot, I feel much better now. Healed. Tomorrow we'll meet one of our friends who's coming to town, we'll see what we're going to do.

My boyfriend is on vacations at Los Cabos and I can't wait for him to come back, hopefully I'll see him on Monday!

I'm hungry and I need a bath, as always. I'm going to sleep.

jupiterlejano — Fri, 17 Dec 2010 08:32:54 GMT

I did this and posted them in tumblr, a friend of mine contributed with some phrases, ha.

jupiterlejano — Fri, 12 Nov 2010 07:03:06 GMT

Out of the things that make me angry I think this is the ultimate thing. I really hate that, I really do and I can relate to the feeling you get everytime I smoke; believe it or not I'm trying to stop, because you don't like it and because it's not good for me. The thing is that, you act like you don't care about what I may feel or think about this, I know you do but you act like you don't and that bothers me so much, sorry but it's true. I feel so bad that you can't just say something else except for " :/ " when I'm complaining and yeah, I know I can be pretty annoying, that I tend to overreact, well, I've been too conscious about my temper and I've felt that this has been the first time in months that I've been pissed off about something you do, I love you but this really makes me feel bad. You went to bed without even saying anything more, yes, you asked me if I were angry and to be honest, I know that you knew I was angry, it wasn't even necessary to make that question; it bothers me that everytime you feel sad when I smoke I try to make it up to you; I really feel bad about it and try to make you feel better... well, your certainly didn't to me this time and I was really expecting it. Fuck it, yes, I may sound as the type of girl I hate but at least I'm taking it all out and yes, I will say this to you tomorrow, when you wake up. I just hate to go to sleep angry with you, it makes me cry

jupiterlejano — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 17:57:25 GMT

Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.

YES.

jupiterlejano — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 04:37:44 GMT

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Hi guys, this is me. I slapped some bitches in the face today and then pooped a little after eating their nails. I was riding an unicorn on my way home and puked some snails previously to my arriving. My name is Carl.

Well, not really.

This is me.
My day was okay. I went to a friend's house to discuss some ideas for this group they're starting. I'm not really very creative with activities and dinamics but I was just hearing and making jokes. I had a good time. Then we had a small talk for the creation of the logo which is my responsability, kinda and we had some ideas. Did 7 designs, etc. Made a vexel and well, basically my day started just fine beside my dearest. Ha, everything's backwards, well, I don't care. Right now I'm just updating this so it won't die (please don't LJ).

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of our favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – Your favorite movie.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days.

jupiterlejano — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 05:20:55 GMT

I'm trying to use Illustrator, again.

jupiterlejano — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 19:38:12 GMT

I don't care bitch, I don't care. I'll see fucking Devendra Banhart and Adán Jodorowsky this effin' Saturday.

jupiterlejano — Mon, 23 Aug 2010 08:13:09 GMT

Argh. I'm so annoyed, really pissed I can't even... okay not that pissed but... I can't believe you sometimes, really. I hate when people think the worst of me... especially when I believe, I've been good and caring. Once again I will paint on my forehead the words "I DON'T GIVE A FUCK". Psht. Thanks for doubting about me, thank you very much, I can't even explain into words how happy I am. NOT.

jupiterlejano — Sun, 15 Aug 2010 20:08:08 GMT

i dreamed I was at home and I heard Lady Gaga came to town to a show and she was giving a secret free show somewhere out there and I figured out where. I ran and there she were playing a guitar softly with a very pretty blue outfit not typical of hers but freaky enough to belong to Gaga. I waited until she finished her song and then told her that I admired her so much and wanted to hug her if she didn´t mind and she smiled widely and so I did. We went to an small apartment where she was staying the night, it was a very normal place, not luxurious and stuff and I was hanging out with her, fooling around and talking about weird stuff I can´t remember and then I called my friends who love her also and they were so excited everything was a big mess. All of my friends were holding their cameras to take pictures with her and they left I was leaving also but then I remembered I had no pictures with her and we took one of the two of us, she was very kind and was always smiling. A parallel story was going on, there was a girl who was my friend and something weird was happening but I can´t remember, anyway.

I´m on this diet and it´s too difficult to do it, not because I can´t stick to the alimentary rules; eating less, healthy food and such, no, I can´t eat ALL the calories I´m supposed to, I eat much less calories and sometimes I don´t do breakfast because I wake up too late but I´m taking some pills with contain weird... drugs and they´re supposed to make me loose body mass and weight... man.

At school I´m such a lazy ass especially because my faculty hasn´t uploaded my whole class schedule so I´m not going to all my classes because of that. Since I returned to Graphic Design, at that faculty we can say that I failed ALL my classes because I left at half of the semester and did not do my exams and finals, so, I have to take the courses all over again like if I´m in first semester. Meh. Tomorrow I´ll go and tell all those bitches to give me my classes back so I can get this over with. I´m worried because if I´m abscent from my classes I have the risk of failing them and actually get suspended next semester or worse... so, argh, my parents told me this is my last chance and if i fail with this oportunity I´ll have to go back and live with them. Heh. If that happens maybe I´ll get a job or something and I know I´m saying this like it is too easy but well, I´ll take my risks but I´m not going to fail, I´ll do my best even if I feel a bit demotivated at times.

It´s been a lot since I don´t update this thing and I´m actually a terrible LJ friend but anyway, hope everyone´s doing well. I´m off to watch some weird movie about Romeo and Juliet with seals... my friends won´t switch the channel D:

jupiterlejano — Mon, 26 Jul 2010 21:22:42 GMT

I've learnt from experience that I should let people talk to me. What I've done in most cases with my friends is asking them 'til the end of their patience what is wrong, what's happening, what's on their minds, etc. now I just let this things flow and I don't even know if it's wise or not, if that's the right thing to do and the correct attitude but I guess that if someone's dying to tell me something they will do it someday and I'll just wait, I guess that my point is, I'm trying to respect people's silence, there's a reason why they say nothing to me and even if I'm dying to know, it's not really my decision to say when should I hear this words.

jupiterlejano — Thu, 08 Jul 2010 21:12:51 GMT

Okay, today I woke up and felt like talking about my favorite character of all times. Sesshomaru from Rumiko Takahashi's InuYasha.

To some people, InuYasha may not be the greatest anime, especially because it's cheesy at times and too predictable. I get pretty annoyed when the characters point out obvious things. An example is when you see Naraku's miasma in the air and Shippo says something like "LOOK, NARAKU'S MIASMA"... gee, it's annoying and it gets repetitive at times with the Kagome, Kikyo and Inuyasha situation but oh well, I guess I just love that in a weird way but I want to talk about Sesshomaru...

I love hiiiim. He's amazing, he's a wonderful character. We have this intimidating demon, Prince of the Western lands who enjoys killing and improving his skills. At the beginning I thought he was gay... you know, pink eyeshadow, feline eyes, fluffy accessories and a Sailor Moon look in his body painting but after his introduction to the series (because I haven't read the full manga) I was just infatuated with the development of this character.

His seek for more power was unconvinient for InuYasha all the time. He wanted Tessaiga so much that he was capable of killing him, he also had his hate for him for being a half-demon and basically being the proof that his dad fell for an "useless human", he was also jelous and confused by the apparent preferency Inu no Taisho had for his half brother by giving him the strongest sword as a heirloom, so he had his dark feelings for InuYasha.

He started as an antagonist and became such a nuissance for InuYasha's group, he also "helped" Naraku in some ocassions (I guess two) but doing it because he just doesn't care how, he has to defeat InuYasha and get that sword for him. His angry battle spirit took him to a battle with Tessaiga and InuYasha that made him loose his arm and this event changed the character completely. After this event he met a little girl who assisted him for several days when he was hurt. Since he hated humans, he didn't want the girl's help but he was too weak to kill her or just leave. Having a debt with this little girl was a commitment to him so he saved her when she needed his help and after that, the girl became his companion along with Jaken -sama. I guess many people know this story.

I think that Rin (the girl) was something meant to happen. Inu no Taisho (his dad) had in mind that his son had to care about humans just as he did with InuYasha's mom, he also knew that being a powerful demon was indeed big but he needed to be responsible for other creatures lives, and so he was gifted with Tenseiga's powers. Sesshomaru felt frustrated for a long time. Since Tenseiga couldn't slash a soul that didn't belong to the Underworld but after the anime continues, Sesshomaru suffers from a big personality transformation. He's still quiet, violent and still hates InuYasha but we can see that he's no longer a compulsive killer, he's even a bit tolerant towards humans, he actually ANSWERS SOME questions made by InuYasha and company. He also used Tenseiga a few times, wanted to use it but couldn't (with Kagura) and felt frustrated for the first time because he wasn't able to save her. His final lesson arrived when he went to hell to make some progress with Meido Zangetsuha was learnt when he couldn't revive Rin, then he realized that, there's no valuable thing in the world if it risks Rin's life.

The fact that he's not the typical hero is appealing to me. When they get inside Naraku's body at the last episodes, he was protecting Kagome when he fell from... I don't know, Naraku's stomach? He wasn't even bothered by her presence (not too much). After they defeated Naraku he decided that Rin should stay at Kaede's village so she could live a "human" life so she could decide what she really wanted. I guess he also tried to protect her since she is his most valuable thing in the world and I think that's very cute, still, he has that "I don't care attitude" but we all know, on the contrary, he does.

The idea of Rin and him together when she grows up is also something that I approve. I don't think Rin would love someone more and wouldn't feel satisfied because she already knows her perfect man, even if she doesn't see it that way as a small girl, when she grows up she'll realize that because, I don't think she saw Sesshomaru as a father or brother, she saw him as a god or protector. She would follow him even if her life was at risk. I don't know, I guess it's such a beautiful relationship that will grow in all stages in a pure way. She was an option not an obligation to him, so that's why I don't think Sesshomaru is a fatherly image to Rin, because he didn't teach her anything, he was just there to protect her, he gave her a second chance and she had a reason to be happy all the time because of him. On the other hand, Rin warmed up Sesshomaru's heart.

Sesshomaru is a great character in my opinion. He's just full of power and mystery. I also think that Sesshomaru's crescent moon means the difference between InuYasha and him. Since moon phases are involved when it comes to InuYasha's power, I guess that, it just marks that Sesshomaru and InuYasha will never be equal in power. I don't know, it's just a weird theory of mine and it just sounds out of context now but anyway.

jupiterlejano — Sat, 03 Jul 2010 06:20:21 GMT

I wish you said that to me, once when I wanted to hear it so much.

jupiterlejano — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 03:38:49 GMT

What I ate today:

-Breakfast- I was asleep so, I didn't eat.
-Lunch- A piece o' meat which was terrible, I hated it and salad.
-Dinner- Scrambled eggs with tomato.

jupiterlejano — Mon, 28 Jun 2010 21:22:17 GMT

This is fucking madness. I'm sitting here on the toilet, updating this stuff. Yes, I'm such... em, whatever. It's been a few days since I spend a lot of time there and not because I want to if you know what I mean, so spending some time on the Internetzz it's a bit distracting for me.

This weekend we went to get a new appartment. Luckily for us there was one available at reasonable price, size and it includes almost every service except for electric ones but other than that it's perfect, we'll be moving hopefully on next month, yay. It's a cool place, my faculty is "near" (15 minute bus ride + 10 minute walking + 5 to get to the classroom), we have a big food on the go service via internet -which is quite attractive-, there's this piercing/tattoo shop near and we have a gym close so our life is kind of sorted out by the moment.

Actually this thing is working out (gym), I thought it was going to be really annoying but it's actually fun, no one notices about your routine, except for the instructor, obviously. I don't know why I had the wrong impression that people might make fun of you for being a fatty... I mean, I'm aware that this happens in many places, not only at gyms but well, I was afraid of being an easy target, it's too soon to say that though, but if this happens someday I won't care probably, I'm actually proud of myself for not being a lazyass... I've already lost about 5 lbs. this is quite an accomplishment for me. I've never been organized with excercise, and I'm not even going to speak about food... but well, it seems everything's going just as I expected. I'm such a badass for doing this, I believe. 20 years of my life suffering in my own cell, now I'm finally coming out, little by little.

Well, I must get going.

jupiterlejano — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:15:54 GMT

Today I went to the gym. Took spinning and aerobics. I actually feel very silly at aerobics class... since I have two left foot my coordination skillz suck. Anyway, spinning class was fun but at the same time was hell... the instructor is cool though, she wears a fringe like me and she's a grown woman, she's cool...

I decided to enter the gym mostly because of my weight. Since I moved out from my parent's I gained almost 12 kgs. in a yeaaar... it's so much, I'm so fat. I decided to stop whinning about how much I hated myself because that wouldn't lead me to anywhere. I guess the key is to accept that yes, in fact, I'm fat, I'm overweight and that I need to do something. I can't pretend like there's nothing wrong with my body, especially with my health, I just can't be all the time avoiding exercise and healthy food... yes, it's a pain in the ass literally but it's worth the sacrifice at the end I guess. I know it's my first day, changes won't start right over, well, not physically, but mentally, it motivates me that if I keep the routine I'll loose all the weight I gained soon and maybe a bit more and will feel comfortable with my body for once. I've been uncomfortable since I can remember, I've always been chubby, since I'm like... 10 years old, maybe even less... and yes, I've always thought it was a big deal, I even started to think people didn't want to talk to me because of that issue and it was kind of hard when I was a teenage, knowing most of my friends were having boyfriend or having some kind of attention from guys and I wasn't... it was difficult, I felt depressed periodically and I was a bit bittered for some years, now that's not an issue, I'm quite happy with my social life... well, I can still accept some friends in my life, but I'm very comfortable in that aspect... it's just my physical condition that bothers me but now I can happily say I'm working on it :)

jupiterlejano — Mon, 31 May 2010 20:24:49 GMT

I know I have a pretty face but I'm constantly feeling uncomfortable about my body. It's very difficult for me to stay fit because I'm usually lazy and unwilling, and I know that's a huge problem. If I lose weight is usually because, yes, I exercise but also because I get sick somehow. Last year that's what happened, I lost about four kilos because I had a kidney infection and I was throwing up almost daily, he, but I gained those kilos and maybe even more so, it's a bit uncomfortable mostly because I don't feel okay with the clothes I wear, sometimes they don't fit like they used to and that's very annoying, I get very angry because of that.

Sorry if I'm always bringing up this topic. Believe me... I don't post this to receive compliments, not that I don't appreaciate them, I really do, but this problem goes beyond someone else's approval... it's about me, I need to accept myself and if I don't like the way I look, I have to sacrifice many things to accomplish my goals in order to feel good about myself. So my plan is, 1) Eat less junk food, eat healthy stuff, 2) Do some exercise and if I don't, walk more, 3) Make a food diary. I don't know how this worked on some people, but I think this will help me to realize what I'm actually eating because most of the time I eat without caring if it will make me gain weight, if it will do some damage to my stomach, etc., so, yeah, that's what I'm going to do. To some people it may sound obsessive... it may be but I'm obsessive about some stuff so it doesn't really matter to me... whatever it takes I'll do it, without compromising my health, obviously and besides, I want to go to the beach and feel comfortable in shorts and a bathing suit, after all I'm still a girl haha.

jupiterlejano — Mon, 10 May 2010 22:32:28 GMT

So, after giving it a lot of thought I've finally decided what to do with my professional life. I was (am, don't know how to even say it) studying, Multimedia and Digital Animation, which I really like, the problem is that the main focus at my faculty is programming instead of having artistic priorities and I don't think I'll deal with the situation... I feel like I'll be failing all my math topics, etc., 'cause, in my graphics topic my tests aren't over 30/100, true. So, I'll do everything I can to study photography and publicity, that's something that I really enjoy 100% since I'm a kid. Now, I'll be working, if I can, and after finishing the career I'll study some graphic design and arts... yeah, I know, it's a huge plan but I do see myself accomplishing that plan. I need some motivation and I hope this is the solution I was looking for since 2007.
Wish me look.
How are you doing? :)

jupiterlejano — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 23:11:25 GMT

Well, this is unbelievable. I was waiting for the weekend since two weeks ago and now, my weekend is starting to suck. I'm not getting into any detail, I'm just a bit disturbed, sad, maybe angry and mostly tired because of school and dealing with outer issues is not pretty, definitely not. I had to call my mom to basically tell her something she didn't want to hear, she was understanding though and I'm glad, because that means she's being herself again, which makes me happy but on the other hand I'm worried about the consecuences of some of my actions and how that's going to influence my relationships, my "image", etc. Yeah, most of the time I'm the kind of person who's always saying "I don't care what people think of me as soon as I know who I am", well, this time I do care, not because I want to, because I NEED to care... and well, it just makes me sad that maybe I'll have to work very hard to change this "damaged image". I'm an idiot... the only good thing about today was I got a perfect score in my Physics exam and that my mom actually supports me, her words actually made me cry happy tears.

jupiterlejano — Sun, 04 Apr 2010 10:52:24 GMT

So many days without an "interesting" post, well, here it goes.

Drama has been one of the most mentioned words throughout these years and it's getting a bit annoying now. Even if I try to stay out of trouble drama finds it's way to get me, at least a little bit. This time isn't about "me", I'm just a third, maybe a four, fifth or... yeah, you get the idea. It's about one of my friend's ex's... he lied to her, was hipocritical and said behind her back that ALL of her friends were a bunch of mediocre people... yeah, me included and I don't battle on that (talking especifically about me). I'm aware I may not have huge goals... well I do but I do nothing to accomplish them, so I don't feel bothered about that comment but he said that about other friends too and that's what pisses me off a bit, because well, he's not the most productive person in the world, he just thinks about anime, manga and cosplaying and I don't know him, not even a bit but if he took the time to say something about me without knowing me then why I shouldn't? The thing is that I think he's one of those people who speaks only shit (yeah, I know, classy comment) and to talk about anime, etc., other than that he doesn't have anything NICE and selfless thing to say... I know, this shouldn't bother me at all, but it is bothering me because I'm so annoyed by that kind of people, because he's the kind of person you remember and makes you feel like getting a slice of meat and chop it into pieces, well, maybe not, but you want to punch him in the face and then expose him naked on the streets or something... meh, well, and I just want to say that I'm so tired of drama, I don't know why people spend so much time of their lives making it happen over and over if people would just speak the truth everything would be so much better.

Once again, excuse me for the terrible English.

jupiterlejano — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 12:04:44 GMT

Es el fruto de un fantasma,
metido en el cajón de los recuerdos
oculto bajo la cama,
que me atormenta no sólo en mis sueños.

Me cubre, no es aleja,
tanto es el terror,
aquel que me acompleja
y me deja con dolor.

Writer's Block: Redo

jupiterlejano — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 11:34:54 GMT

Christopher Walken, he's so cool or maybe John Malkovich or Morgan Freeman. Gee, great news Livejournal, now bring me a beer.

jupiterlejano — Tue, 30 Mar 2010 04:08:10 GMT

Bump.

jupiterlejano — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 23:01:36 GMT

Sometimes, is annoying when you're about to have an exam and you have no idea about what are you going to do, especially when your teacher decides to be an ogre and scare you to death. I hate this right now. Currently downloading a physics book for further consulting, mh.