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Open relationship gone wrong:

gary040788 — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 06:59:14 GMT

Please excuse the terrible writing, I'm just not really in a good state to pay attention to grammar and spelling.

My girlfriend and I have a 1 sided open relationship. She's allowed to see and sleep with other guys and I don't.

I really don't want her to sleep with any of my friends at all. I've never said it directly to her. But I have asked, many times, for her not to sleep with my best friend. And even made her promise me she wouldn't try and meet up with him unless I was there.

So eventually she meets my best friend via MSN and within days she's giving him a blow job. after doing so, she SMS'd me to let me know. I was gutted. But didn't let her know straight away. I questioned her about how she found it and why she did it and so. And then told her to promise me not to do it again. Days later she's doing it again. This time around I told her I was devastated and asked that she stop. cutting out all the details, the two of them start getting in to ropes and handcuffs and pretty much having a free time about everything. I try to encourage her to find other men if she needs that kind of thing in her life, but she keeps telling me she only wants me and never ever wants to do anything with my friend ever again.

She knows this is killing me, but my love for her is so strong that it keeps our relationship going in spite of all this. Well last night she did it again. She said she was hanging out with him and cutting to the chase she Blew him. I get an email at 4:59am saying that the fucked up and is so terribly sorry. But this afternoon she's not longer saying she's sorry but in fact, she was lonely and he was lonely and since I don't mind he being friendly with other guys, she figured it would be all OK. Even though, time and time again, I've told her how much it kills me and how much it's destroying me on the inside and how she's welcome to the other 3 billion guys on the planet. She has to go for my best friend.

What are you thoughts on this situation?

New Blog you might like

manmuncher — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 06:59:19 GMT

Hi everyone,

I am a 20-year-old female university student. I have just started a blog that I think people in this community might enjoy.

It is a humorous blog giving juicy true details of my tangled love and sex lives. Right now I have several guys in my life, including 'The Boyfriend', 'The Aristocrat', 'The Friend of the Ex' and 'The Bible Basher'. Come and read my witty tales to see how it all develops... You will like my blog if you're open minded and a little bit naughty!

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Kisses,

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What does it mean when a guy....

foolinwithyou — Sun, 30 Nov 2008 20:21:42 GMT

This question would be to all the men out here. What does a guy mean when he asks a woman if she likes giving head??? I was asked this right after going down on him and of course I replied Yes I do, but the fact that he had to ask is making me think he might have not liked something or I sucked at it for him. I asked him why he asked and he replied, "because You're so good at it." I just still feel unsure about why he asked. So guys what is your opinion on this scenerio.

Thanks all.

starxoxmist — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 16:47:01 GMT

Heya
I'm new, and still working my way round here
But I thought that you all seemed to be nice people and give good advice, so I thought that this would be the best place to pose my questions....

I have recently got into my first proper relationship (with a guy, i'm a gal) and all I have ever done is kissing.... I know that we will go further, and that he has before, but I really wouldn't know what to do....lol that sounds so stupid
and so i'm pretty worried and a little scared also... :S
Because I don't want to make an idiot of myself and/or him think me absolute crap...

Okay, I'm going to shut up now
Just someone tell me that everyone was in this position once... please?
lol i'm sorry
xxxx

Erection Creams

battyvamp — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 23:45:25 GMT

Hi,

I have a question on erection creams. How good do they work? My Fiancee is having a little problem on getting "happy" and we did some research and found out that instead of having to take pills he could use creams. So I am wondering how well they work.

Any input would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you.

Less pain?

uttrminayme — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 12:53:58 GMT

Hi everyone. I need some real help.

I'm seventeen years old, and recently started dating this guy named Mike. He's twenty, and he's done loads of stuff. Has had plenty of sex, knows his way around a womans body, if you know what I mean. I've been thinking about having sex with him, but thing is, I'm a virgin. I'm a little scared of how painful it will be.

We've actually tried-once on St. Patrick's Day, and once again last night. St. Patty's day, though, I was a little drunk and so was he. When we tried, he had a condom on (he always practices safe sex), and we tried almost for two hours to get it in. It went in a little, but it hurt so much, that we had to stop.

I recently told my friends about this, and one of them recommended not doing it on the bed. She said missionary style makes first times worse.

So my question is, is there any way to do this in a position with the least pain possible? Also, is there anyway to relax myself without the need of alcohol or drugs? Because I've been thinking about getting drunk and trying it...

Hey I need some sexy support!

sexycindybaby — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 20:03:27 GMT

Hey all you sexy people this is cindy, and im a phone sex operator over at baycityblues. I wanted to post here to let everyone know that I cant wait to meet you all. This community sounds just like what I need and thats a person that will support me sexually. See ill admit that I actually like doing phone sex, thats why I have been doing it for so long. And another thing Ill tell everyone here the truth, I have real orgasms on the phone with my clients. I mean since im enjoying myself that comes through on the calls I do. And when I enjoy myself and relax it makes the clients enjoy themselves and relax. Im waiting on you to call me and make my day, I promise that when you do call me I will make you so happy and furfilled that you wont be able to think of no one else ever. And thats a promise, my aim name is cindysoothesyou@aim.com my yahoo aim is bcbcindy@yahoo.com and my email address is cindy@baycityblues.com . Im hot and ready for you, dont make me wait too much longer im so hot and sexy im melting, dont you want a taste?

Sexy lingerie, Opinions please

romanceculture — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 16:30:07 GMT

I just started a small sexy lingerie shop and could need some advice.
If you have some minutes would be great if you could give some comments on the selection. Is it too sexy, too boring...?? Any comments are greatly appreciated!! What kind of sexy lingerie do you look for to spice up your sex life?

Advice on getting what you want

tikismile — Sat, 08 Sep 2007 00:05:22 GMT

I've been with my partner for 5 years and we have a baby and another on the way. During a break we took a year before our daughter was born, I realized with a different partner that I REALLY get off if my neck or nipples are sucked and gently bitten and from good kisses. After I'd gotten back with my current partner, I realized that other than intercourse... we basically don't do much other than kiss each other gently on the neck. We vary positions, and I suck on his neck, ears, nipples etc., but getting him to reciprocate is near impossible. I've tried telling him " more" as we're doing it, or telling him "I really like it when you..." as we're warming up but it doesn't seem to be getting across.

Any advice from the men and women in the community on how to communicate my wants better?

problems cumming

gemalias — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 15:47:31 GMT

Hey. I just found this community and it seems as though sex support is what I'm needing right now!
I've been with my new girlfriend for almost four months and we've have been having sex with each other since then. The trouble is I can't make her cum when I'm going down on her, nor when I'm massaging her clit manually. She tells me she came once when I was using my fingers on her clit but to be honest I think she's lying.... I have no problem making her ejaculate but I'd like to give her the full monty.
I have much more experience with girls than she does and I think that she expects me to be masterful in the bedroom, which I'm sometimes up for but quite like to be 'taken' now and again too!
She claims that I'm better than many of her past partners however, they've made her cum and I haven't. I ask her to tell me what feels good, what turns her on, I try to be as perceptive as possible because I don't think she's got the confidence to give me a step by step guide on how to get her off nor does she even know what gets her off. She doesn't have a problem getting aroused, she gets wet and her clit gets very very hard but just can't seem to cum......... She is taking Prozac at the moment and is also very stressed out so maybe this has something to do with her inability to have clitoral orgasms with me or for that matter, her self!
Another problem is that I'm beginning to feel very inadequate and the whole situation is giving my ego a real bashing (which i'm aware is pretty selfish). Now when we have sex there is an awkwardness between us, mostly because I feel like she is just going through the motions to satisfy me, which I can tell you, is not satisfying.
We had a discussion a few nights ago after having sex which was really tepid. I got a bit agitated, and told her my concerns, to which her initial response was to say she felt as though I was giving her an ultimatum. She now tells me she's glad I said something (which I don't believe). Am I pressuring her too much? Is there anything that I could do to help this situation or give her an orgasm!?

Squirting.

meekaleeka432ah — Mon, 21 May 2007 00:51:07 GMT

Alright. I know all about female ejaculation and what not. I am a squirter. I'm proud of it...but when I do squirt I can't stop! I mean I can stop pushing and stop the liquid from coming out! But if I push no matter how long it just keep coming out eventually soaking EVERYTHING and making a mess..I once squirted all over the bathroom floor and it took 3 BIG towels to get it all dry...my parents were like...What happened? And I was like...Oh the bathtub overflowed....seriously..the bathtub overflowed? They believed me though...which is what makes it more confusing as to why I'm able to squirt SO much!

I LOVE to do it...but I just HATE the mess!

I was wondering if there was anyone else here that squirts? at all? too much? wants to?

and I was also wondering what a good way would be to catch it all to measure it to see how much I've squirted so I can maybe enter the guiness book of world records or something!

any comments are welcome!

Thanks!

Problem with orgasming during intercourse

acemikels — Sun, 20 May 2007 22:23:06 GMT

Long time reader, never posted or commented, but wanted to ask a good community a question.

I'm 26 year old male. I've been in several serious relationships with women, and have a few one night stands with a few others. I've never really had a problem during my early 20s cumming during sex with women at all. Yeah, I would take 20+ minutes or so, but I could cum. Even during my longest relationship of 5 years, I never really had problems in the beginning, but towards getting older, around 24 or so, I started having a harder and harder time cumming from having sex with my fiancee/wife. I could cum easily by masterbating, but any time during sex I would get to that point, but it's like I couldn't push or will myself past it. Kinda like being in a race, seeing the finish line, but yet its all mud to it.

I've noticed in the last 2 sexual relationships I've had that I have a hard time orgasming at all. With the first one relationship, I had sex with my girlfriend for the first time for 2-3 hours without cumming at all. I got close, twice, but again, couldn't seem to get myself past that point, even when I was hitting the spots I'm used to for myself. Now I should say that in all actuality, it was more like 45-60 minutes worth of vaginal intercourse, the rest mostly oral on her, jerking me off, etc. When we had sex again for the second time, I eventually did cum, but it seemed to take FOREVER, almost an hour+ of fucking her. Just to give some information: she lived nearly 5 hours a way, so I visited every other month for a few days at a time, so we had sex practically every night of those days visiting. So I visited her 3 times, and I think we had sex 7 times; I came 3 times. She came on average 3-4 times, so probably close to 20+ orgasms (I'm good at eating girls out lol).

Well my latest relationship, my girlfriend and I had sex for close to 2 hours, and I still couldn't cum. I got close, hell I tried jerking off on her face and I just couldn't cum. And I hadn't cum for days either and I was SERIOUSLY in the mood. It was like I was either nervous or something, cause again, I could feel myself getting to that point, wanting to cum, and yet, couldn't. Eventually, I came during the second and third sessions we had, and much quicker (an hour+ of fucking/sucking, then 30-45 mins of fucking/sucking).

I'm just trying to figure out what is wrong with me? I mean with my wife, in our later years, I just figured it was because we were having difficulties and I masterbated an awful lot, and that was why I was lasting longer and taking longer to cum (also lead to some cheating, and our divorce, but that's another thing entirely). But now, with my latest girlfriend, I just want to cum for her. She really likes getting me off, and it's frustrating cause I do so well for her, and yet she does such a tremendous job on me, but yet I can't. I mean she can ride me and I've gotten to that point, and yet just can't push myself over.

Any help or advice?

Another thing: I also caused my girlfriend to be 'sore', a first for her. I'm not all that big, about 7" long and about 5" measuring around. She's had longer, but not as thick, although she does have a 6" wide dildo that she doesn't use often cause it causes a bit of pain for her (it's sorta a sex stress thing for her, hard to describe it, just when she's frustrated with life, sex, etc, she uses it to slightly abuse herself). But yeah, when we tried to have sex the next day after our first time together, she was a bit sore, and even the third time together, we could barely fuck it hurt. She's also not used to guys going that long, even though during it, we stop, she'd do down on me, I'd go down on her, back to fucking, etc. Also, a thing she noted was that most of the guys she's been with that been slightly curved, and I'm very straight, hardly any angle at all. Any advice on that?

Honey--Friend or Foe?

dancing_nerd — Thu, 10 May 2007 19:03:05 GMT

I was interested in using honey during sex, and I was wondering if anyone had tried this. The information on the internet is equivocal--some seemingly legitimate sites say it will cause a yeast infection, and other seemingly legitimate sites say that honey (because of its antiseptic properties) will actually CURE yeast infections.

Any personal experiences or professional medical advice would be much appreciated. Thanks!

teethofjade — Thu, 03 May 2007 04:54:24 GMT

my boyfriend and i are trying to have sex, but every time we try, it hurts so bad i start screaming, and we have to stop (i'm a virgin, he is not). we practice using one/two fingers about every other night...use lots of lube...make sure i'm "warmed up"...nothing is working. fingers still hurt like crazy every time he does that, andwe've been trying that since february. my bofriend is being very patient and isn't pressuring me at all, and i'm psycologically ready for sex...so what's going on down there? i'm really frustrated with how hard this is. when does it get easier? any tips?

sugarbearexcuse — Thu, 29 Mar 2007 21:51:27 GMT

This may seem like common sense but it's a question to ask because I really do need other's opinions on it.

I had a daughter about a year ago, but she was adopted by another family and it's only been nine months since then.
I'm still with the father(he's my fiance), but he cheated on me 3 times during the pregnancy and left me for two months to be with those three girls.
We worked things out but now...I'm not really sexual with him anymore.
Before then everything was hot and passionate(unless I had day sickness), and now it's blah.
I think it has to do with my mental outlook on sex now since all of that happened, and he doesn't please me very much anymore when we do have sex.

Could it be that I'm just not attracted to him the same way anymore?
One of the girls he cheated on me with he cheated on his last girlfriend with as well and might have a possible child out of the ordeal because they had sex without protection everytime so I hold resentment towards that as well if the child is his.

Agh, what I'm getting at is, is this normal for me to feel like I don't want him to touch me sexually and I have no libido for him anymore?

My Favourite Mistake

umbrellalove — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 08:11:27 GMT

Anya Marina - Move You (Slow & Steady Seduction Phase II).MP3
(click above to download)

Today, i'm here with a question and a possible mistake. I NEED your input and any advice that you can throw at me, cause i'm at a lose-lose situation.

Two nights ago, i got drunk with my friend, over at his dorm.

Let's call him, A.
We've had lunches together and he'd wait for me after work. I'd finish off his leftovers and he'd smirk at me cause i told him he wasted food. We laugh at all our corny jokes and he'd smile at me sometimes and it'll feel like the world had stopped. We'd have 3 hour long conversations that never made me nervous or awkward.

Just, always. Right.
We're friends.

He came back from the bar 2 hours later, i was passed out on his bedroom floor.
He nudges me awake. Mumbles something about me sleeping on his floor. It bothered him.

He's drunk and he's had 13 shots and other assorted alcoholic beverages. My head spinning and throbbing, i struggle to look up at him in the dark.
"You can sleep on my bed, but it's pretty small and i usually sleep half-naked. We'd be spooning and i can guarantee you that something will wind up poking you"

I lean my head against his clothing drawer to stop the spinning that i feel.
"I can poke in other places too, if you'd allow it. It'll be our little secret. I might not even remember any of it in the morning given the fact of how much i drank tonight."

"We can have sex" he says, i can feel his feet shuffling in the dark next to me. The door crack letting in a flow of natural light. He fumbles towards the door and closes it.

I hear a click of the lock.
Before i know it, i find myself supporting myself up onto his bed and crawling into the comforters.
And he slowly kisses my neck...

We had sex.
Wild, raw uncontrollable, passionate, 3 hour long sex. It felt like we've wanted this all along. Like it felt right and never wrong.
And i won't lie, i've never had an actual orgasm with another person up until two nights ago, when i spent the night with him.

I had sex last night
with the wrong person,
but the thing is, it didn't feel wrong at the time.
It felt like, something was falling into place.

The irony is. Nothing goes as it is planned. Nothing is ever expected.
The next morning later, i had work to go to (a thirty minute drive) and slowly crawled out of bed when i heard my cell phone alarm.

He doesn't seem to stir from his sleep. I pick up my clothes and slowly, quietly put them on and tip-toe out of the room.

Six hours later, he shows up at work with a disheveled, hang over look. I look up from my tasks and my stomach tenses. I don't acknowledge him and he doesn't acknowledge me.

We spend the next 6 hours at work, totally ignoring each other, while on the inside i was tearing myself up, almost on the verge of uncontrollable tears, i fight myself from releasing them. I would never look towards his direction.
Everyone around us notices the moody behavior we both seem to have and they start asking questions.

My friend asks whether or not it had to do with last night and hanging out with A.
I told her to drop the situation.

She later txts A, on her cell phone reading:
"Stop being an crotchety asshole. You're making work un-fun. Apologize to Y to whatever happened last night"
He stops talking to her until the end of the night where he tells her "I can't remember anything from last night and what i did with her."

I don't know what to do now. I just don't know. I just don't believe that he doesn't remember anything. And if he actually did forget; that doesn't explain why he isn't talking to me.

We made a mistake that night.
A mistake that felt so right to do, it wouldn't be labeled a mistake. But it is.

Should i apologize? Should i start talking to him? What should i do?
Should i call him?

We've stopped talking ever since then.
I miss how we once were.... && i'm afraid it won't be the same as before....

Umore| guilty
Musica| Anya Marina - Move You (Slow & Steady Seduction Phase II)

New but..

dianea — Tue, 27 Mar 2007 01:50:32 GMT

I kind of have a little bit of a problem. I am a virgin and my boyfriend isn't, and I am willing to give this kid my virginity the only thing is I am wicked un-experiance at everything. I am afraid to give him a blowjob because I have a small mouth and I don't know how to do anything.

Also one question, my friend said it didn't hurt as much for her but she used tampons and I don't so will it hurt alot? And also will there be alot of blood?

xcouldxkillx — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 22:47:55 GMT

I have a problem
My boyfriend is a virgin and I've been teaching him the ropes ya know? The problem is, he can't make me cum. Is there any tips I can have to help him get me off?

x-posted like crazy

listenrealhard — Fri, 12 Jan 2007 00:38:02 GMT

I switched from Ortho Tricyclen to YAZ this past summer. My boyfriend & I started seeing each other in September & I have a lot of trouble climaxing when we have sex. I read that YAZ & other birth control pills can "decrease libido." But my sex drive has not decreased AT ALL. Could it still be the pills preventing me from having an orgasm when we have sex even if my sex drive hasn't been effected? I dated someone for two years & climaxed almost every time we had sex, & my new boyfriend is MUCH better in bed than he was. So I'm confused. Help/advice? Thanks.

That's a spicey meatball

soulsex — Thu, 11 Jan 2007 21:09:18 GMT

I'm a visual girl. I like seeing a guy in a designer suit, or just frolicking on the beach in a speedo. But for this post, I want to talk about some thing I don't usually open up about. They come in all shapes and sizes. I think you know what I mean. And I find them hot, not only to play with but to see.

I have an image or two that capture my fancy. If interested, request to see. Otherwise, just add an image of your own that you think represents your visual ideal, what the hottest one you've seen looks like. Or just tell us. It's a fun topic and can help us better examine the stereotypes. As women do we need words and stories always to get turned on? Is it always about intimacy?

Consequences of "sharing wife"?

naughtyblog — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 09:50:48 GMT

Hi, I'm new to the community. (24/male if that helps...)
Here's a situation that I would like some advice and opinions on:

consequences to "sharing" my girlfriend?:

I'm not married, but my girlfriend and I have been together for a few years and we practically are married (and are planning to eventually).
Our sex life had been seriously deteriorating. For a year or more I was constantly horny and always wanting her and not really feeling like I got enough. Then I guess maybe I gave up and lost interest in sex (though I never stopped masturbating)... but at that point she started feeling the way that I did before -- that she was horny ALL the time and wanted me and that I was never into it. She would get mad because I would rather touch myself than have sex with her.

At some point -- I forget how it started (and was trying to remember the other night actually...) -- I told her about how I fantasize about her with other guys (the whole "wife swapping/sharing wives" thing). And I started reading her my favourite "loving wives" story in bed while I touched myself (and her when she felt like it). She enjoyed the story. Then I introduced her to the chat at Literotica.com. I can't remember how that started... either I wanted to watch her chat with guys, or we were chatting as a couple with other people (I think this was it)... Eventually she started chatting all the time, even when I wasn't around. The agreement was that she would tell me about her experiences afterwards while I touched myself.

We were both really horny now, although she still didn't get her sex as often.

Then she started adding these guys to her MSN and talking to them there and webcamming and sharing pictures of herself. And then eventually she asked me if it was okay if she had phone sex with one. I was torn because it really turned me on, but I also really wanted to listen and she didn't feel comfortable with that. So she's now had phone sex with two different guys, I think (maybe three -- though the third may have never ended up calling), and one of them she has talked to, like, 3 or 4 times, and talked for HOURS about life and stuff as well. She's even asked what I thought about her actually visiting him and "hooking up", which she really wants because she pretty much has a big crush on this guy.

A point I should make is that if she sounds slutty or unloyal or whatever it's because I kind of pushed it in the first place and more or less agreed to and approved everything (if not asking her to do things for me, which is how it all started).

I'm the jealous type and get really jealous when I feel like she doesn't tell me something, or whatever, and I hate feeling this way. I'm curious to know if there is anyone who has gone through something similar and what their advice would be for me (and us). Does it sound like we are going in a dangerous direction? What are some consequences, and how far do you think is "too far"? Recently she made out with our mutual friend (a girl) while her boyfriend watched. She hasn't told me much about it yet except that she was in her underwear (maybe topless?). I've fantasized about her sucking off another guy and even having sex (though that is mostly just a fantasy that I probably don't want to come true? I don't know...). We've also both fantasized about her hooking up with guy friends of mine...

Anyway... feedback would be great. I want to know what everyone and anyone thinks about this. It's such a sensative subject because it seems sooo good at times, but also seems really scary, like maybe it will drive us apart or something.

shakespeariana — Thu, 23 Nov 2006 05:41:40 GMT

My boyfriend of over 2 years (we've lived together for one) is obsessed with anal porn and is compulsively masturbates. He had hidden it from me and had lied to me and we have been having constant near break ups over it since i found out... He's started to see a therapist.

I recently layed down the final ultimatem after a particularly depressing episode, and i blocked him from logging on to my computer(mine's the only one) while i'm not there.

yesterday an anal toy thingy came in the mail. he oredered pior to the ultimatem, but today it's been opened and i'm flipping out...

this is the first time i've told anybody the specifics about the problems i've been having...

i'm hoping it will be cathartic.

It's just that we've talked about spending the rest of our lives together and he says he loves me and everybodys cried buckets. In ANYBODYs opinion what does this all fucking mean???

---
edit:

i didn't mention that he had done the secretive porn masturbatin stuff at work.

or that we had started to toy with anal ness in bed, and had already established that i enjoy it and was willing to do it

or that he has serious communication issues which is the main reason he started therapy

roarfire — Mon, 09 Oct 2006 11:16:49 GMT

Hey everyone.

I'm having so much trouble trying to work out what's going on with my body/mind at the moment.

I don't enjoy sex, or oral or being fingered. I never masturbate either and on the rare occasion that I try and give it ago it just doesn't feel that good?

I get really jealous of my friends bragging about what great, mind blowing, nerve shatting orgasmic sex they've had and I can't seem to have it!

I like fooling around, I enjoy kissing, cuddling, stroking, fondelling etc but when it comes to intercourse or oral it's like my vagina is numb! I find myself having to fake it a lot cause I feel bad otherwise. Otherwise I'd just be lying their lifeless and silent.

I have managed to orgasm before but that was years ago.

I just want to be able to enjoy sex! It's really, really frustrating and upsetting me.

At first I thought it was psychological but now I'm worried it's physical and there might be something wrong inside.

I'm not sure who I should see first about it - a psychologist, or my GP, or a gynocologist or what?

I feel like I'm missing out on so much. I don't want to be like this forever.

I'm been thinking if there is any drug out there that will make sex good for me? Like a drug that enchances sensations and sex drive (a legal drug, of course!). I'm scared I'm going to have to resort to pills to be able to enjoy sex.

frustrated!

m_i_a_spirit — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 15:20:09 GMT

I had a tough childhood. Not as bad as some and not as great as others.

My teenage years were trying for myself and those around me. I did stuff I’m not proud of and stuff was done to me. (I’m not going into details. Sorry).

When I turned 20 I had nothing to really show for my life. I was out drinking, drugging (not heavy) and partying. I was careless till about 25.

Then I met M. Well, I actually met her a few years prior when she was just only 16 (I was 22). I fell in love her with then. But I couldn’t touch her or do anything because she was jailbait.

She was my Lolita. Look but do not touch, think about but do not act.

I was troubled by her. The things I wanted to do her; the things I wanted her to do to me.

Well time went on and she left my life. I heard through friends she was engaged and had a son. Then through a mutual friend we met again. I confessed to her (now legal) of the things I use to think about doing to/with her. and she liked them. all that out of the way, things kind of clicked. We fell in love. We moved in togehter. We had a daughter and married.

We went through some tough patches, but we stuck it out. and now we’ve had a third child; a boy born in February. Our passion kind of fell to the wayside at that point. It led to wander lust and acquisitions. It took a dramatic event to bring us back together as a couple.

I’m trying to get her to open up to me and tell me what she wants. What she wants for us.

I asked what I/we can do to keep the passion between us. And she said she doesn’t know.

So I asked about her to tell me her fantasies. And she claimed she didn’t have any.

Though she has always pressured me to know mine. And I’ve told her some. And we have acted on only a couple.

As you can see from my journal, she is always the main character in my fantasies.I’ve tied her up and whipped her. I’ve done anal with her and I watched her fist herself. She’ll give BJs, but she won’t allow cum to get on her or in her mouth. But I’ve always been the one to ask or kick off these experiences.

But what troubles me is getting her to open to me about her sexual fantasies. She has told me she’s been with another girl. But she refuses to go into details. And she told me she would like to watch another woman have sex with me. then maybe even a couple with us both. She also explained that she likes to be dominated or forced.

on the suggestion of a dear friend, I bought her a couple of books: some Nancy Friday books about woman's fantasies and Nerve.com’s Big Bang for a little bit of eductaional reading. Both of which she is reading now. She has a pretty decent assortment of toys (dildos, vibes, pocket rockets and a butt plug) all of which she has used with and without me. We’ve watched a couple of porno together and I even made her pick some out. When we watched what she had chosen, you could clearly see they were picked for my viewing pleasure. That kind of bothered me. i know she likes porn (she loves Tera Patrick) but i wanted to see something that interested her.

I guess what I’m getting at is how could/should I get her to open up to me sexually? I want to know what she wants. There has to be some erotic thoughts brewing in that mind. A kink or fetish.

Any ideas? Anyone?