grant threatened to call the cops on me a few weeks ago to take back his car he was originally going to give me. he left me stranded adn i had to get something asap or i was going to loose my job.

i told him to stop fucking me over

i told him i deserve SOMETHING for fuck sakes. i mean.... i did put everything i had into that relationship for five years.

he changed the locks on his doors so I cant even take whats mine. (like clothes and things)

hes not talking to me anymore... just got what he wanted plus some and pushed me away.

i was being so nice.... and he just pisses all over me.

i'm slandering his name because i am pissed off. he can at least be fucking decent enough for me to take my personal belongings. the washer and dryer are literally mine! like mine bought for me. and he wont give them back or buy them out. i should call the cops on him.

then he'll turn around and say he still cares he still has feelings for me. fuck that. hes a total 100% selfish bastard. who leaves a woman stranded with nothing with her job on the line? his work is 3km from that house. i have to drive from caledon to barrie to toronto etc. things like that everyday. thanks a lot buddy.

then he says he wants to be friends.

wtf? i'm calling a lawyer... my uncle.

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my folks were going to help me buy my car but now they are not. they aren't because peter is mexican. seriously. they think he is going to steal the money because he is mexican now they aren't going to give me any. i didnt know they were racist

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there's a lesbian couple in my building and i feel soooo jealous. seriously.

i need a girlfriend. anyone know anyone in toronto?

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he was so concerned, so upset that i would screw him over. he made me believe that i was screwing him over.

i was so wrong. he is smarter than i thought.

i got the shit end of the stick and now he is avoiding me. here we go - i start all over again.

thanks for nothing, buddy

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ok this is a continuation.

i'll make this short.

i called buddy boy grant and told him to keep his car and go f himself. he's a child and if he wants to play dirty then he can keep whatever the hell he wants and i can move on.

end

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i need to vent

ok i am going to say some things and you guys can give me advice if you want but mostly this is for my own good to get some stuff out not a cry for advice but i would still like to hear some opinions.

my divorce.

so far the deal is about 80-20. grant gets 80 i get 20. i get the bed, couch, car and some kitchen stuff. grant bought me a laptop. grant gets the house and everything in it including stereo system, tv, computer, 200+ movies, furniture, cds, nintendo etc.

80-20 right...? in my opinion anyway. i mean he gets the damn house he has an asset... but I figured you know what i have a new boyfriend, new apartment and a new job to look forward to. I have my life... i might get the shit end of the stick but hey i am happy and i have my life.


yesterday....
i talk to grant. as of October 1st I am uninsured on the car and I cant drive it. uhm, thanks for the warning buddy. so now i wont be able to move into my apartment and keeping my job is in jeopardy.

hold on i'll post mroe alter

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i need an apartment. one in toronto by myself. 850 a month is my max. any ideas? thank you

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I want to make an entry but I'm not too sure what to say.

I'm picking up Robin tomorrow and we're going drinking on the reserve.

My old work is PISSED that I quit, I didn't realize they would be this mad at me. I seriously thought they were going to fire me so I was just covering my ass - but apparently they were really really happy with me and excited about me working with them. oh well.

My dogs need excercise, they havent gotten much this week so I am going to take them out now.

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my job is so boring i hate it i sit here all day and nothing happens.

So I got a new job this morning - starting wednesday I will be an environmental remediator. (yay)

time to go drinking at the moonshine toooniiigggghttt!

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i'm bored and hungry. someone entertain me

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Rumor is going to the vet soon, she is very ill. She is having anal troubles.

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Every minute my neibours are home their dog is out in the yard. They don't pay too much attention to him they just put him out there and leave him out there. It wouldn't bother me so much, but they leave him on a chain. a short chain. don't dogs go all crazy if they are on a chain all the time? or am i wrong? i let him come over and play if he is alone for too long. i also give him toys and cookies, my neibours don't mind when i play with him and feed him... so its ok.

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The Rules Are As Follows
1. You shall put your music player on shuffle.
2. You shall press forward for each question.
3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. You shall give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
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How are you feeling today?
"Upon The Raging Storm" - Profugus Mortis (I'm pissed!!! No I'm not I kid)

Will you get far in life?
"July" - Katatonia (I'll make it until july then I'm gone for)

How do your friends see you?
"black seeds on virgin soil" - Old Mans Child (i'm a babymaker of some sort?)

What is your best friend's theme song?
"The itch" - Katatonia (awesome song, awesome person)

What is the story of your life?
"Criminally insane" - Slayer (thats why i'll only make it until july)

What is high school like?
"the beauty of this form" - Profugus Mortis

How can you get ahead in life?
"my twin" - katatonia (i dont have a twin, i'm doomed)

What is the best thing about your friends?
"slaves to the slubliminal" scar symmetry (thats the BEST thing about them)

What is in store for this weekend?
"kaleidoscope god" - scar symmetry (sweet! I havent played with one of those in years)

How is your life going?
"arise" - steel attack (one minute i'm going insane in july....)

What do your friends really think of you?
"the illusionist" - scar symmetry (SWEET)

Do people secretly lust after you?
"the crestfallen" - soilwork (I don't know!!)

How can you make yourself happy?
"the beauty of this form" - profugus mortis (masturbating??)

What should you do with your life?
"the soul reciever" - old mans child (kill people)

Will you ever have children?
"versus terminus" - in flames (no)

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I spendt about 11 hours designed my new tattoo.... (maybe even more than that) and I'm not even finished. Any way I accidentally ripped the piece of paper in half. I'm a fool

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I was sick today. I barfed a lot. Like... A LOT. and it was pink. Seriously. Like fleshy pink. It hurt too. I feel better now.

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Hi everybody, how are you all doing?

I have a job interview in 2 hours. I really, really, really want this job. The job I currently have is awesome - I have no complaints about the people there or the work I do. The only thing that gets me is the driving. One day I'm in Cambridge, the next I'm in Welland. Sometimes I'm lucky and I get Hamilton - the deal with that is ANYWHERE in Hamilton. One call I'll be in Stoney Creek, the next in Tapelytown, next west mountain, next downtown. It can take 40 minutes to get from one side of Hamilton to the next. The wear-and-tear on the car isn't worth it. Plus the hours bother me - 70 hours a week. damn.

But I love working with clean air. What is the number 1 thing absolutely everyone on the entire earth do more than anything else? breathe. And how many of those people do you think breath clean air? not many.

My job interview today is another clean air job. It will be in an office (no driving) and it is literally one major road from my house (no driving). Happy. I talked to the guy on the phone and he seems very interested in me, I just have to knock his socks off today.

On another note - while in Montreal my friend and I got matching tattoos. happy. we got two words tattoed on our legs... but... there's a spelling mistake. yup. I'll post pictures after it is healed up.

bye for now everybody

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I'm leaving for Montreal tomorrow.
I am so happy to go! I need a break.

I am not sad or depressed or anything like that but lately I just have not felt right. I've cried everyday and even at work in between calls I sit in my car and cry. I'm not sure why exactly but getting away with my closest friend will definetly set me right. Then when I come back I will be myself again. I don't even really have anything to cry about... I have no reason! I have just not been myself.

I leave tomorrow at midnight and I come back Saturday! I will post photos on facebook.

:)

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Grant's a jerk.
I've been planning a trip to montreal with grant and his best friend for a while now. I've told Grant the dates over and over again. I'm paying for the entire trip, and its been in the works for a while.

Grant has yet to say one positive thing about the trip. He just bitches about useless shit and complains. It's making me feel horrible, like I made a wrong choice. But I really want to go to Montreal and grant and I have even said for a year next spring we are going to montreal.

So I feel like crap like I can't even enjoy the trip because sp far it seems like he doesn't want to go. EVen if I br ing it up in front of other people he has nothing to say about it.

The icing on the cookie is now hes saying he might not even go. Well fuck boy let me know! His job was to find babysitters for the dogs... which I could have found no problem for sure. Now hes saying he can't find babysitters for the dogs. Then yesterday hes givin me shit because apparently I didn't tell him the date of the trip. Whatever. hes known for weeks.

Anyway, even if something happened and he couldn't go, or even if he is going he shouldn't act like a jerk about this trip. He shouldnt be so negative and make me feel bad about it.

I already told him all this.

So I might have to bring someone else with me.

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