-There are lots of things my mind and heart want to type…
+ Even though this makes you defenseless
-Have you ever experienced the feeling of you have no other choice…, have you ever experienced that kind of longing…Maybe “no other choice” is not the exact word, “aching to explain” is better…I wish I could voice my spirit out…I have been holding the stars in my heart…can rain of the eyes be translated…
+ Maybe the right one won’t listen
-Probably…
+It is so sad…
- Maybe this is a useless attempt….but it is not uselesss if you feel you got no choice…I truly wanted to go that place, I truly wanted to create time for it, now I feel I’m not wanted….Unfortunately I cannot read minds…I wish I could speak everything clearly…to reach a better understanding…but there are lots of barriers…somethings cannot be explained in explicit words here…they cannot be substituted…sad how much I use the phrase “no other choice”….and everything is so open to depreciatory eyes…
+ It is so hard to crystallize feelings and thoughts into words….
- I cannot do it to the fullest without……/ Somethings are beyond utterance without the interlocutor
+ But there is one thing you can do…maybe what matters the most…
- Even though whatever I write here can never be wholly adequate, the one thing I am capable of is to say I have always been sincere and true…the sincerety and trueness of me is too pure for the touch of a word…
nightwithdeer 
