Well it’s been 5 years since my last post. I seriously can’t believe it’s been that long. Does anyone even do this anymore? If you are still out there- I guess I’m checking in to post an update on my life. The last time I posted, I had just turned 21 years old and was a hopelessly heart broken college student. I actually started this blog to help with my depression. I just re-read all of my posts and it actually brought tears to my eyes. I remember that time in my life so vividly. I was hurting and alone. I am so grateful for any comments of encouragement I received. You have no idea how much your comments and advice helped me back then. Just to know that someone was listening was so impactful.
So I guess you’re wondering- what now?! Well, I’m 26 now. I transferred away from the college I was attending back when I started this blog to move closer to my mom and help her with her cancer diagnosis. She is in remission and doing awesome. We grew so much closer as a result.
I graduated a few years later and started working at an awesome company that I LOVE and I seriously couldn’t be happier with my career.
Obviously after I moved, it really helped me to get over my heart break and get on with my life. I later found out that he dropped out of school and is pursuing a rap career ( 😅 ). Crazy how life works. While in my last year of school, I met my now FIANCÉ! Seriously the most wonderful man I know and treats me like gold.
I wish I could go back to the girl writing these posts, depressed and thinking I wasn’t good enough. I wish I could shake myself and say WAKE UP! YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN WHAT A BOY THINKS OF YOU! I cannot believe how much that guy’s opinion of me dictated my life.
After I left, I grew closer to my family, learned to love myself, and randomly found love in the process without even searching for it. Life is literally insane and I am so grateful that I pushed through. There were many times back then that I almost let depression win. A lot of your comments held me together and I am forever grateful for that. I’m not entirely sure what made me reset my password to this blog and write again. But I guess I just wanted you all to know that I’m okay. Life gets better. It’s true. There are so many hard times but I wouldn’t trade them for anything if it meant that I could still experience all the good times.
If this goes unread because no one uses this platform anymore, that’s cool. Just wanted to give an ending to the story.
With love and a grateful heart,
-AC
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