Woolly thinking

So, I've been very bad about keeping this updated.  That seems to be how all my posts start these days, so I'm going to have to keep up posting just so I have something original to do.

I had plans for November then kyabett lured me to the Nano side with the promise of chocolate.  I managed my fifty thousand words - apparently when you've spent a few years tackling Big Bangs, fifty thousand words starts to be a much more achievable goal.  I did an original project which is marinating.  I basically wrote an outline starting years before the story starts so oh, boy is there a lot of chopping and cutting and rewriting to do. 

First comes Yuletide and I'm wandering back and forth on the idea I have. Tomorrow is my big blitz day (also known as 'Ara catches up with everything that needs doing before Christmas!!') so I'm clearing all of my to-do list and getting things done.

One reason that I haven't been talkative lately is that my depression is better.  Yay?  Yes....but it's brought up a new problem.  I've known since I was in my early twenties that I'm an Aspie but I never had so many problems with the triggers and stresses.  I thought I was just lucky - I could push through and manage just fine.

Yeah, no.  It turns out that the depression just masked it.  It's hard to notice the signs of stress when you are past caring about anything at all.  My depression did have that as an upside, who'd thought it?  It's nice to know that it's working but wow, it's taking a lot of conscious effort to break bad habits and to notice when I'm being unnecessarily harsh on myself for something that is making me uncomfortable.

My solution to this has turned out to be knitting and crochet.  (I totally blame vae  for introducing me to the wonder of shiny needles and pretty wool.)  I've started learning how to knit (all hail deannawol of infinite patience and the kindly-not-laughing-at-me) and how to crochet (which is almost entirely down to maeritrae giving me a guide to the basic stitches).

I'm also on Ravelry, in case there is anyone else I haven't found yet who is in there.



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