In Miles Davis’ Miles: The Autobiography, he recounts a time when he attended a dinner at the White House. He discusses being trapped at a table with a politician’s wife who asks Miles if jazz is “art in its truest form” or if they are just ignoring it because it comes from Black people. To Miles, this is someone trying to be hip while being deeply ignorant. So he responds, calling out what is at play head-on: the insecurity of a culture that “likes to win everything” and can not handle that Black people created an art form they can not claim. When she responds by making the insult personal – asking what he has actually done with his life – he does not hesitate. He tells her he has changed music five or six times, and then, in a moment of biting clarity, asks her what she has done “other than be white.” It is a raw confrontation that lays bare the power dynamics he has been navigating his entire life, turning a state dinner into a final, unmistakable lesson.
Reading Miles’ autobiography often feels like being trapped at that dinner at the White House, exactly where Miles found himself in 1987. You come into the experience possibly expecting a standard music biography – full of technical anecdotes, cool studio stories, and the polished arc of a genius. But Miles, writing it at the end of his life, does not care about the script you may have prepared for him, he plays by his own rules. Therefore, refusing to be a polite, compliant subject, he forces us into an unfamiliar, often uncomfortable world. In some ways, the book functions as a mirror: it inadvertently brings your own prejudices to the fore. Every time Miles corrects a myth, rejects a category, or explodes a premise about the blues, he is effectively checking you: Are you reading this to actually understand, or are you just looking for a comfortable narrative? Just like he called out Jackie McLean for not learning the standards, he does not hesitate.
By the time you finish, you realise that reading this autobiography is not a passive act of consumption; it is rather an audit of your own assumptions. Like the politician’s wife at that dinner, you might have brought your own set of “museum” misunderstandings – about his music, about race, or about your own moral consensus on how people are supposed to behave. Miles will not let you leave the table with that consensus intact. He forces you to confront the man alongside the artist, refusing to let you curate the story into something sanitised or “respectable.”
I have spent years with In a Silent Way and Blue Train sitting on my shelves, but they always felt like artifacts from a distance. To borrow from Miles, I think I had a “museum appreciation” of jazz. Ironically, it all felt “square” to me. Miles was actively fighting against that perspective his entire life.
I never thought that the music called ‘jazz’ was ever meant to reach just a small group of people, or become a museum thing locked under glass like all other dead things that were once considered artistic. I always thought it should reach as many people as it could, like so-called popular music, and why not?
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
After reading this autobiography, I found myself wondering if jazz was, in some ways, the “grunge” movement of the 1950s, gritty, responsive and fallible. But I also started to feel that “jazz” is really many things at once. Miles himself moved through a series of different forms, from postwar bebop to cool jazz to fusion, never standing still, always changing.
People who don’t change will find themselves like folk musicians, playing in museums and local as a motherfucker. Because the music and the sound has gone international and there ain’t no sense in trying to go back into some womb where you once were. A man can’t go back into his mother’s womb.
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
This evolution was not just artistic, such as experimenting with modal music – it was as much technological. Throughout, Miles treats the history of recording technology as a series of shifting frontiers. He describes the move from 78s (limited to approximately 3 minutes) to the 33-rpm LP as the liberation of the long-form improvisation. What I had never appreciated with In a Silent Way is how, technologically, it was not even possible to press an album like that when Miles started.
When he pivots to the electric guitar and the wah-pedal, he is not just chasing trends; he is reacting to the texture of the changing world around him, drawing from the energy of Hendrix and Sly Stone. In some ways, I think this was part of Miles’ love for Prince – another artist who reacted to the world in a similar way.[1]
By the time he is wrestling with 80s synths, he is clearly hunting for something that feels vital to the current moment. Critics loved to accuse him of “selling out,” but reading it in his own voice, you realise it was the opposite: he was terrified of becoming a caricature of his “cool jazz” past.
There is a deep, almost Merleau-Pontian truth to how Miles moved through the world. He understood the central argument of Maurice Merleau-Ponty, who famously wrote that “the body is our general medium for having a world.” We are not just ‘thinking things’—we are embodied agents.
Maurice Merleau-Ponty described this state of total immersion—the point where the instrument is no longer an object, but an extension of the self—with striking accuracy:
“There is an objective sound that resonates outside of me in the musical instrument… a sound that vibrates in me ‘as if I had become the flute or the clock,’ and finally a last stage where the sonorous element disappears and becomes a highly precise experience of a modification of my entire body. […] either the sound and the color… sketch out an object, or at the other extreme of experience, the sound and color are received in my body, and it becomes difficult to restrict my experience to a single sensory register: it spontaneously overflows toward all the others.”
Source: Phenomenology of Perception, trans. D.A. Landes by Maurice Merleau-Ponty
When Miles says his horn is “as much a part of me as my eyes and hands,” he is not speaking metaphorically. He is articulating that same fusion where an instrument ceases to be a tool and becomes part of a lived reality.
The people who frustrated him – the critics, the politicians, the teachers – were all trying to treat him as a “museum piece”: an object to be summarised, categorised, and pinned to a wall. Miles fought back because he knew that true “Jazz” and true life can only be lived from within. He protected his music not out of arrogance, but to prevent the vibrant, lived reality of his art from being turned into a dead, conceptual idea.
If Merleau-Ponty explains how Miles felt his instrument – as a lived extension of his own body – the philosopher Gilles Deleuze helps us understand what he was doing on stage. Deleuze might say that Miles was constructing an ‘assemblage’: a machine of intensity where the man, the horn, the air, the suit, and the room all collapsed into a single, flowing vitality.
In Deleuzian terms, you cannot separate Miles from his trumpet, because he was not just a man ‘playing’ an object; he was engaged in an act of ‘becoming-trumpet.’ This is exactly why the ‘museum’ irritated him so much. Museums are ‘arborescent’—they are like trees, with fixed roots, hierarchies, and categorised branches. Miles, by contrast, was a ‘rhizome’ – he grew horizontally, shifting genres, plugging into synths, fusing with Hendrix, playing with Prince – and refusing to ever stay in one spot long enough to have his roots pinned down. He was a force of constant change, forever chasing the new.
The appeal of the new, I imagine, must be that it does something the old cannot achieve. The new then, is not merely the different, but that which makes difference possible, and it is this power which can only be realised in a relationship between the object and a subject that is the basis of its appeal.
Source: Deleuze and Pop Music by Ian Buchanan
Miles’s refusal to be rooted in a ‘museum’ was not just aesthetic; it was inherently political. It was his way of surviving a society that desperately wanted to pin him down. This refusal to ‘sell out’ or be categorised is nowhere more potent than in his writing on race.
The refusal to “sell out” or be categorised is even more potent in his writing on race. We are given a sense of what it meant to be Black in mid-century America, mostly in passing. He describes doing a cameo on Miami Vice in 1986, where a co-star asked him how he felt acting. His answer was flat and devastating:
“You’re acting all the time when you’re black.”
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
He unpacks this by saying Black people “put on masks and do great acting jobs just to get through the fucking day,” because if white people really heard what was on their minds “it would scare them to death.” In a few lines, he turns a TV bit part into a metaphor for survival: life itself as performance under white scrutiny.
Earlier, while studying at Juilliard, he touches on a different version of the same thing. A music history teacher explains the blues as the sound of poor Black people picking cotton and feeling sad. Miles explodes the story: his father is a rich dentist in East St. Louis, he plays the blues, and “my father didn’t never pick no cotton.” He is furious at a book by “someone who didn’t know what the fuck he was talking about.” It’s an institutionalised misreading of Black life.
Put together, those scenes show why the book feels less like a “race tract” and more like a lived anatomy of American race relations. As the reader, you are following him through concerts, schools, and TV sets, and you see the same pattern: Black genius constantly having to play a role or push back against people who think they already know what Black music means.
That brings us back to that state dinner. When Miles challenged that politician’s wife, he did not just smile and grin. When she asked why he was there, he told her he had changed music five or six times – and then he asked her to tell him what she had done “other than be white.” It was a raw confrontation that laid bare the power dynamics he had been navigating his entire life.
There is a final, brutal honesty about his less admirable self. The same raw directness he uses to dismantle racism is turned inward, facing his struggles with addiction, his volatility, and his violence toward women. Throughout, he never tries to smooth this over with an easy apology.
In my life I have few regrets and little guilt.
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
If anything, he often makes things more messy by recounting a story only to then provide Miles’ truth about the situation.[2] Rather than break through the myth to some truth, we are instead left wondering what is true about any of it. For example, he talks about the story that he showed up in the rain with his horn in a paper bag and Clifford Brown “took pity” on him. Miles says that is movie stuff and explains why it could not have happened that way. It feels like the ‘truth’ of that situation is not necessarily the point. What is important is that Miles was totally out of it, stuck in an addiction to heroin.
In the afterword, Quincy Troupe spoke about the choice to retain this rawness:
Some of what he said was so explosive, we ultimately had to edit it out of the book for legal reasons.
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We decided to take the calculated risk of offending the squeamish in order to preserve his true voice.
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
This candor forces the reader into a difficult position: you aren’t reading the story of a hero or a saint, but the story of a man whose brilliance and destruction were inextricably linked. He presents these flaws with the same matter-of-fact rhythm as his musical triumphs.
As the book reaches its final pages, the frantic, jagged pace of his earlier life settles into something like a final, unedited transmission. There is a distinct shift in his style – a man racing against the clock. The rhythm is relentless. One sentence, one thought, then the next. Then, then, then. God. Family. Animals. Music. He is simply trying to get the weight of life out onto the page before he runs out of time.
I’m an instinctive kind of person who sees things in people that other people don’t see. I hear things that other people don’t hear and don’t think are important until many years later, when they finally hear them or see them themselves. By then, I’m someplace else and I’ve forgotten what they’re seeing.
Source: Miles: The Autobiography by Miles Davis
In the end, the reader is forced to sit with the uncomfortable reality that his brilliance and his violence occupy the same space, and you cannot simply walk away from either. Like the politician’s wife, you are just left to sit with it and ponder. This struggle is something that Francis Davis captured:
Autobiography is a problematic literary form, because it’s never clear which is being submitted for the reader’s approval, a book or its author. Davis writes that he loved Parker as a musician but “maybe not as a person,” and the Miles Davis who emerges from Miles—as complex as any character in recent fiction—elicits a similar ambivalence from the reader.
His treatment of women is contemptible: he isn’t averse to slugging them to keep them in line. It isn’t bad enough that he talks with unconvincing remorse of hitting his own women; the story intended to illustrate Billy Eckstine’s tough-guy credentials has Eckstine slapping a would-be girlfriend while Davis looks on approvingly.
Source: The Book on Miles by Francis Davis
For me, I am going to leave the final words with Nick Cave, while I listen again to In a Silent Way:
Perhaps it is better to simply let Morrissey have his views, challenge them when and wherever possible, but allow his music to live on, bearing in mind we are all conflicted individuals – messy, flawed and prone to lunacies. We should thank God that there are some among us that create works of beauty beyond anything most of us can barely imagine, even as some of those same people fall prey to regressive and dangerous belief systems.
Source: Nick Cave – The Red Hand Files – Issue #48
Like Cave says, we are all messy. But listening to In a Silent Way – or reading Miles – reminds us that this messiness does not disqualify the art. We do not have to choose between the brilliance and the destruction; our job is simply to hold both truths while the music plays.