Lance gets gayer and gayer and gayer every time I see him on something. AND HE ALREADY GOT ELIMINATED FROM THE GAME. But he will be back next week for another chance. I think the same people just keep playing or whatever and the top two with the most points or something go to the championship. I love him :(

So Nikkie called me a little while ago and Kristen is going to go down to Tower Records in the morning to get the Green Day tickets. Because there are like six people going or something and Nikkie was like eff that I am not getting them for all of Kristen's friends, so Kristen is going instead. SO I'M GOING TO SEE GREEN DAY IN SEPTEMBERRRRRRRR LIFE IS GOOD.

I am back you sluts. At this journal anyway. Maybe I will start just copy and pasting my entries over here so the people that actually update here and not there don't have to go all the way to GJ, IE LAUREN!!!!! because I don't care about the rest of you.

saintjimmy.

Why Britney fans should be shot.

My feet are freezing. I have 4 pairs of socks on. My heater being broken is the worst thing ever. I am one big human icicle.

EXPOSING HER NIPPLE WAS NOT AN ACCIDENT.

I want my bed now.

Why does Brad Fitz hate me. Where is my phone post >:O!

yourtiredwords: i just filled out a survey go do it so i have something to read plz

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JACKSON :'(

LAUREN :'(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really have to stop updating on GJ more than I do here. It's becoming a bad habit, I think.

So what's been going on. Jesse was here for a few days last week and although she was on the phone with her boyfriend twice a day for over an hour at a time, we had fun even though it irked me quite a bit. Oh well I guess.

I finally saw ROTK and it was amazing. I'm so satisfied with the way it all ended. After watching that movie so much for the last couple years, finally seeing it end was great. It made me sad though. I don't know. It's weird that when you watch a movie like that, it gets you so involved and attached with the characters. I cried for all 3 hours of ROTK. It was a great experience, really. It's funny, IT'S JUST A MOVIE ADDIE, but I was seriously moved by it. And Jesse calls me Frodo now because she swears my life is his journey. I don't know hahaha.

I'm finished my medicine and I'm sad to say that I feel pretty crappy. The first few days were really good and now I'm just ........ I know it's because I'm not sleeping right but some things you just can't help. I can't force myself to lay down so how can I fall asleep. I don't know. Next time I go to the doctors I'm asking him to put me on Xanax. I need a sedative.

I am on a serious quest to find someone to play Chris Kirkpatrick. I'm so picky with it because I'm so fkjsfks by Lauren's Chris. She has ruined me for all other Chris' to come. Damn you!!

Speaking of Lauren WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU. Don't kill me but last week I just got this urge to write, I was so inspired which is so lame, but I was. And I restarted the whole entire story. I took an idea from something we were talking about before. I was searching under my bed for something and I found this notebook and the ideas just went VROOM right through my brain and every time I sit down to write in it, I can't stop writing. It's going to be great, I think. It's going to be a late as hell birthday present, but I think maybe it'll be worth it. We'll see.

The end.

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Atfer I upload all of my icons, I am going to do that icon meme.

I found out today that my scanner works! I thought it was dumb or something but I plugged it in and voila it worked! So I went sort of scanning crazy. Okay not really, I only scanned like 5 pictures. And I am going to post them mostly out of boredom.

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Maybe I will do that again some time. It was fun.

OMF THE OC WAS SO FUNNY TONIGHT I LOVE ADAM. UMMMM YOU FORGOT YOUR BALLS OVER HERE. HAHAHAHAAHFJSFKSJFS. Is Oliver that annoying little shit from Dawson's Creek who dated the professor's daughter and played Pacey in Dawson's movie? I hated him then and I hate him now.

What is that new movie with Kate Bosworth? Oh well, who cares what the name is, Topher is so fucking hot in it mmmmm.

I am tired and I want to go to bed but there is a prank war to be had sigh.

Today I discovered that a lot of people bug the shit out of me. More so than usual.

How's that for an update with substance.

hi i am home.

well this is obviously the post, that i will post here and gj, where i tell everyone what i got for christmas and although i wasn't looking forward to christmas, nothing beats presents really. especially like, presents i really really wanted. ps. it is too fucking early to use capital letters, you're lucky you can even read this shit.

so i didn't get a lot, which i'm happy about because i didn't really want anything anyway. i'm good with money and cds, really. or just cds. i did get cds. two. that i really really wanted but didn't know i was getting. well, the one i did. which was pink's new album. but for the last two christmas' or so, i got pink's new, at the time, album. so why should this year be any different really. and i'm really excited for it because obviously she is my gf. and the other album i got, fkjsfkjfksjfksjfksfjksfjkfjksfjksjfs, was the new blink 182 album. OH YES SANTA CAME TO TOWN. like, i had no idea my sister knew i wanted that. and fjsfkjskfs i am only on the third song, BUT IT IS SO AWESOME. anyway.

and !!!!!!!!! i think it's the dvd's that i'm most excited about, because i got two of my favorite movies ever. one, the fast and the furious, shut up and leave me alone vin diesel is god. i have been dying for this movie since i first saw it in the movies. everytime it is on a movie station, i watch it 583985935353 times and finally, i have my own. AND i got. DEEP BREATHS. fight club fksjf;ksjfskfllfkdlfkdkdldkf orgasms. i have seen this movie more times than i can count, even more than fred durst i swear, and it never gets old. so really, i am never leaving the dvd player again.

dude eve. i told my sister a couple weeks ago what NOT to get me. and what does she get me, on vhs of all horrid things jk, POTC. I TOLD HER NO. I TOLD HER NOT TO GET IT. but she got it anyway. sigh i'm sorry :( you can still send me yours though, because you are great and i'd rather have it on dvd :D mmmmmm johnny and orlando.

and then i got some other stuff, like a new ring WHICH IS SO COOL. i like freaky designed rings, all my rings are weird looking and this fits perfectly into the collection. it's so shiny and silver and pretty oh tear. and i got new silver hoops. um, gift certificates. new flannel jammies \m/. TOE SOCKS WITH FROGS ON THEM WEARS THEM FOREVER. a pen with a little frog on the top that does flips. a cucumber melon and a vanilla set of all different stuff since they are my favorites. and, HAHAHAHAHA LAUREN DON'T LAUGH AT ME, a book. a book called Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. :[ oh man hides in shame. with my hp book of course. oh and i got a watch. and since my family has like, an issue with dealing with the fact that even though i have been a tomboy all my life, i am in fact a girl. vagina and all. but this watch. is like. dotdotdot. big and grey and bulky and sportish and you can play like, video games on it. which is great and i like it a lot. but. i am a female that gets more girly every year. you do the girly earrings. the ring. do the watch too. i will have to remind them of this next year. i'm just kidding really. it was a good morning.

so after a night full of panic attacks, there was a note on my desk that said 'merry christmas, love your anxiety' HEH i kid, it was a good morning. even though i was afraid to fall asleep and only got 2 hours of it. i'm still good to go. i feel like a little kid excited about her gifts. and well, maybe i sort of am.

merry christmas again, i hope you all have a great day.

merry christmas everyone since i will not be arodn tomorrow. i love you all. sort of. :D :-*

edit. haha, this is like, the next morning and i just realized i spelled that arodn. i was so high HAHA around*.

What a night. Panic attacks that last 2 hours, hm, not a good thing. Not so much fun. Hour and a half conversations with my mom on the phone while I sob the entire time, not so much fun either. But I think I just needed to get a lot of stuff out. I've recognized lately that if I go at least two weeks without getting things off my chest, things that I want to tell her, I have a night like tonight and I cry to her for forever. It's just like for the last few days, I have been overly depressed. It's weird. I dunno. I'll get over it, it's just another thing to add to the list.

Two more days until Christmas.
Six more days until I leave for five days in Philly.
Seven more days until I hand in my application at WaWa.
Eight or nine days, hopefully, until I have a job.

Can't wait can't wait can't wait. I need to get away from the computer and have a normal life with normal people that I can actually see and touch and have actual contact with. I've had a serious lack of that.

I'm not even going to talk about the Justin thing because it will only piss me off more.

Instead I will talk about the GREATEST gift I got in the mail today. So a couple months ago my sister tried to pull this thing where she was going to go to a DMB concert in NYC when she basically hates DMB, while I love them, and she wasn't going to take me. I was really mad and upset and blah blah blah. But today, I got Lauren's gift in the mail and it was the live 3 disc set of the concert :'( Hahahaha I'm so lame, I maybe sort of cried a little. NOT LIKE SOBBING OKAY I JUST GOT A LITTLE MISTY EYED. It's so awesome though and if you don't have it, go get it. Also, the card was great too with all the asses hanging out.

THANK YOU LAUREN YOU ARE THE BOMBDOTCOM<33333333333333333333333

MMMMMHEARTS.

We put up the tree last night. It's a fairly small tree, it's about as tall as me, somewhere around 5'10 but it's nice and full and it's pretty. The guy at the place said something about their being a tree shortage? Hahaha wtf. Anyway. So we decorated it and packed tinsle on it, all the while listening to *Nsync Christmas music. And I had absolutely no fun. I'm telling you, I'm all bah humbug now. Can Christmas be over yet? Oh well. It smells like pine in the living room and I love that smell so I guess I can live with it.

Just so you all know, people that are getting presents from me, you won't get them until like January okay because I am broke at the moment and once I start working at WaWa, then you will get gifts. K? K.

Lauren can I get an extension on the birthday present? :( Haha I suck but it is not anywhere near done. At the rate it is going, maybe you will get it in time for your next birthday :D