punishment, spanking

weekend waiting….for punishment

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i came….without permission…who knew daydreaming could get you into trouble in real life :/

Master decided that this weekend i would receive my punishment, for stealing an orgasm from him…i gave them all to him and i robbed one from him…

i have been very busy lately so i have known that this punishment was coming (no pun intended 😉 but not when or how…though spanking had been mentioned

Master gave me two paddles to be able to spank with….both wooden and stingy! one is reserved for His slave’s ass and the other called the ‘devils tongue’ we found is very good for spanking His slave’s cunt….these were some of the first presents Master got me…i love spanking for Him and He knows how it makes me ache and get so wet for Him.  i love the anticipation of a good spanking, the stinging pain at first and then the drop into subspace as it turns to pleasure (usually after 25 to 30 strokes ;).  i love how His voice changes, how He pushes me to take all the strokes and spank myself harder, and correctly or repeat it!

His voice changes in a spanking, its so unbelievably sexy all the time…and His cunt always responds to His voice, that is how he is training me to be – wet at the sound of His voice *moans.  In a spanking, especially a punishment spanking he uses His strong chastising voice to hammer home that i have something to be punished for, building up my excitement and emotions, wanting it to be over and know He forgives me but wanting it to continue so i can prove myself to Him again…

This weekend, we had two session of punishment (because of time restraints) the first Master had me spank His cunt, 25 times….though it was more i know, i have trouble counting when so deep into spanking, the sting sometimes just erases the number from my head, i’m so focused on the build up that i can’t think what the next count is…so of course i had to start again at this point *moans…Master had me take before and after pictures so He could see how red and puffy (and wet) i had made his little cunt…of course Masters favourite treat (for him 😉 whilst punishing His slave is to have me stop and tease to the edge of orgasm *whimpers.  His cunt got so sensitive from the spankings, oh and the Tiger balm He had me spread on His slaves clit and covering His cunt…it never took me long to get to the edge!

He would tease me and talk to me making me understand that all my pleasure is for Him, i only cum when allowed to by my Master, i give him all my orgasm in my submission, and continue to do so.  He made His little cunt get to the edge and stay there over and over, in-between spanking His cunt with the paddle….Just as i though i had completed my spanking…and so my punishment, Master had me take my black dildo and fill His cunt, then take a vibrator, holding it against my clit…. He listened as i struggled not to cum….showing Him my self-control, denying myself orgasm because He wants me to….learning what happens when i orgasm without permission, realising that i don’t control my pleasure anymore, that i am only allowed to feel pleasure because it brings Master pleasure to witness it….He asks me to take more of His pleasure, not letting me slow down or stop the vibrator, i am fucking myself with the dildo, He tells me to worship it as if it were His cock, pushing myself to hold the edge for Him….and to beg Him to forgive me and showing that i learned my lesson….

hope i made you proud in completing your punishments Master *kiss

part two to follow

xx

from my Master

happy slave….

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gorgeous collars from Master *kiss

Master once shared a link to a fantastic submissive’s blog about the different meaning of being collared…i could fantasise before but you don’t know how you’re going to feel until i saw the box in the post 🙂 …. excited, a little nerves, and submissive, honoured, blushing…and wet 😉

They were more than i had hoped for, and i love Masters choice for me – thank you Master!

Wearing them for the first time today, i am very aware of the cold steal around my neck, the unyielding but almost fine and beautiful metal surrounding me…reminding me that i am owned and for me (more importantly) wanted…

i am new to submission, learning as i progress and taking what i can from Master and discovering new things about myself – for me these collars are a constant reminder of not only my Master, but my commitment to grow as His slave, and in my submission.

 

one of my favourite sites about submission – Common Misconceptions

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are you ready?

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Hmmm one little text can hold so much anticipation:)

Are you ready for your spankings?

i had been packing to go home for Christmas, i was running around like a headless chicken, picking up the last few bits and unceremoniously throwing them into my case!

i was expecting the spanking, i knew they were coming and i know i deserved them! i’m not sure if it was partly because of Christmas madness or because it was my last private playtime with Master before the holidays that had me so giddy!

i also had really wanted this for a long time, i don’t know whether to be ashamed to admit that i’ve tried to give myself spankings, i have fantasied about being made to feel the sting of a paddle…to be disciplined.  i’ve fantasied about being corrected for my mistakes…if i’ve forgotten a rule or to be made into a better submissive and slave.  i’ve thought about blushing when the stings turn into pleasure, wondering if my face would be the same colour…

in my fantasies i’m not sure whether i’ve thought about enjoying the sting or the humiliation or discipline more, i can never decide which part is arousing me more….i chose two paddles to use for my spankings and discipline, today we were trying out the larger heavier one *whimpers

even though i was not really aroused or wet before the message from Master, as my spankings went on i got more an more aroused *blush

my cheeks were burning and glowing warm as i counted the strokes (45 in total, Master had been counting the transgressions, normally just 25, he felt i needed an extra 20 for discipline *moans) and god i was wet! so wet it was running down my thighs…Master wouldn’t have me touch his pussy either, as this was for discipline (or just because he didn’t want me to 😉 ) so wet and afterwards strangely happy…

After all the fantasy, and dreaming about how it would feel to be spanked and feel the sting, to be red and hot and have bruises in the morning! for wanting it, asking for it and submitting to more and more strokes! i’m strangely happy to find that i not only liked receiving Master’s discipline, that it made me incredibly aroused solely from the strokes of the paddle…i loved it! so happy that the reality lives up to my fantasy – thank you Master *kiss

 

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no….

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one little word no….

why does it sound so good when i hear Master say it *blush

I told him my desire to have my orgasms controlled, that’s his first rule – my orgasms are his orgasm to give, control, force, dictate how why, where and when….or not, with a little word even after i’ve started to beg…No…

He has had me teased before and i feel so submissive and excited to be turned on all day, horny and desperate for him…like today he had me wear my kegel balls and a rope harness over his pussy even as i went to school *blush…it turns me on to be controlled by him, to feel that my pleasure is out of my control, i’ve given it away so i have to trust that any pleasure i now feel is because it brings Master pleasure….

i once said that i’d wanted in the past to be denied an orgasm, even if i’ve started to beg….i think that i enjoy the mind game just as much as i enjoy the physical side…. i’m am quite shy naturally and i enjoy being made to beg, its out of character but freeing in a way. For me begging is something that builds the arousal as in begging i’m admitting how much i need all of this, admitting that i want more…in the past being granted orgasm too soon, meant that this side of the game would stop just as i was starting to find my submission, and revel in it….

Now with Master i am begging more and get so turned on when he controls my pleasure and orgasms, but he sometimes laughs that in the very start i could last much longer before i started begging – it was even a little game to see how long i would last before asking for an orgasm! but now i think i beg more easily, in a very freeing way, as i have already found my submission to him! *smile

xxx

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journal…

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this is a new start to my journal for Master…

We took a pause the last week because i was so busy with work for school, though i really loved how much patience Master has had with me during my hectic time – he was very supportive and encouraging me to get my work done 🙂 and i loved how we still managed to connect and make time for each other….

Master even had time to play, which was nice as i could feel how i might start balancing the slave me with the day to day life version!

We have been exploring more and more sides to play and submission, and seeing how far we can go together…though Master has said he will challenge me more now that my work has eased and we have a little more time together…which makes me nervous and excited as i’ve loved everything so far.  Some of my highlights were:

wearing the crotch rope and kegels out in public *blush* very naughty but with extremely beneficial side effects – i was incredibly horny 😉

Being made to spank myself – for pleasure and discipline !

using the plug in Master’s ass whilst talking to him and watching videos….he pushed me so much but i have to remember not to be so greedy as i nearly passed out after all those wonderful orgasms 😉

my morning messages from Master and watching tv together 🙂

(they’re only a few of my highlights…its actually hard to remember all the details all the time…i tend to get a little ruddy after play 😉

xxx

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Advent Day two

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This is a catch up post, about my Masters second advent article for me.  It was a link to an excellent, informative site about submissive and Dominant relationships, from a personal and human point of view.  She talked of different types of sub missives, and Master talked with me about how i am like a natural submissive, it is a part of my personality, something i should accept and cherish.  My Master talks so well of how submission is another form of love, i adore this analogy and sentiment, the idea that it is an expression of love and closeness with another human being.  Considering my submission to Master in an act of love and of course respect, compassion and devotion helps me to feel secure in the dynamic we are starting to build.  i can be confident that my big heart and gentler side will be treasured here, and i should learn to love myself as much as i can too…

That being said, my Master wants to see what i am made of ;).  These acts of submission and devotion must be put to the test so i can demonstrate how much i want to be His slave.  And i’m happy to say He definitely pushed me last night…i’ve never been so completely stimulated! i had a plug in my ass and stuffed a dildo into my pussy…i’ve never felt so full and completely owned, filling myself for Master, as he directed me to…adding to the stimulation He had me put clamps on my nipples and tiger balm on my clit! So overwhelming, at times i would forget about the clamps as there were too many feelings to concentrate on, but they were bright red and a little bruised looking when they finally came off… mmm ouch!…i’ve been deliciously sore and sensitive for Master all day today, which just makes me relive his complet Domination of me *moan 😉

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Advent Calendar

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Together Master and i decided to make an advent calendar, to help me explore my submission.  Each day Master will send me something that i can explore/think about and we can discuss together.  Today was the first, and Master sent me a wonderful story of a women discovering her own sexuality.  The subject was a little fringe and not everyones ‘cup of tea’ but i think Master wanted to challenge me and keep me open minded.  It was lovely to read about the women’s desires, and how she overcame her feelings of guilt and shame, and accepted herself.  She became a sexually confident women, more happy in herself and her friends and family noticed a positive change.  It seemed very appropriate for me as i start my journey with Master, we talk of not being ashamed of my feelings, and being happy to explore together, i can’t wait to be (even more ;)) sexually confident for Him. xx

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Curiouser and Couriouser

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This is my first blog post for my Master….

He created it especially for me – which makes me feel special, and chose the name cheeky slave.  Thats whom i’m becoming, who i want to be, His (cheeky;) slave.  He says my cheekiness is a part of who i am, i enjoy being myself with him, relaxed enough to tease and be funny.  Relaxed and happy enough to be curious with him.  And he has made me curious already….”Curiouser and Curiouser cried Alice”…..i certainly feel like i have gone down the rabbit hole with You Master, i’m glad you are there to lead me – where ever that may be!

i’m glad that He seems to understand my needs and desires, i have shared them with my Master, they are his as much as mine to explore.  He sees me differently as i’ve shared more with Him in such a short time. i am happy he sees that i’m not like other girls….. your cheeky little slave xx

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