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Hello~ I'm K, X3. I've been an Arashi fan since 2008~. My favorite member of the group is Ohno Satoshi~ though I do really like the other members too. Made this DW account to get in touch with the arashi fandom.

Aside from Arashi, I really like TOKIO and V6, and am quite into SMAP and Eito.

I'm a really shy, and a really social-inept person so apologies if I happen to sound very blunt and stiff ><.

Anyways, feel free to add me as a friend if you're in the arashi fandom as well~

So someone mentioned that Nino said that he'd rather become a youtuber rather than learn another skill set for another job if he ever left arashi....and I was just like "lols~ that is ingenious @-@. Like he already has a large fanbase so I'm assuming that he'd get a lot of views, and maybe he'd do some vlogging, but I'm gonna just assume that he's gonna do some videogame streams. Imagine if Arashi members pop up from time to time to guest in his vids *-* (huuhuu). He'd probably get some endorsements as well, (like for certain games etc. ), and some TV celebrities might also guest in some of his games etc., like they'd play games together, 'cause Nino's well known, while promoting their stuff. He'd be be like earning all that $, while simultaneously doing what he loves, and still maintaining quite a bit of fame

@-@ though hopefuly he'd still be mindful of his health and exercise and eat!!

It was unexpected that I'd write about Kobayashi Mao, but when I found out about her death on this very rsiny day, it had a rather profound effect on me. Like I knew that 1/2 of us would contract cancer, and 1/3 of us would die from it, and it isn't even like I hadn't had a relative who died of cancer.

It's just that she was so bubbly, and the last bits of news I've heard of her is her marriage and then her giving birth.....idk, it just seemed like she was happily going to the next phase of her life, and then suddenly the next thing I know, she's passed on at 34.

I guess it just made me realize how vulnerable each of us can be, and how we take our time for granted. Cliché, I know, but true nonetheless.

For someone like me whose anxiety makes me so scared of actually living, I certainly take my time for granted. At my current age, I've not done anything worthwhile, and despite my feel of urgently to try moving forward, I've kept stalling and stalling. Perhaps I should just relax and just do something that I myself find worthwhile, even if the progress forward is nil. I guess, instead of the feeling of fear and urgency all the time, it'd be nice if I can just be content.