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depressionHello, all.
I have a bunch of diagnoses: borderline personality disorder, recurrent depression disorder, derealization disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder and psychotic depression and I take four different medications (aripiprazole, alprazolam, fluoxetine and desvenlafaxine). I was commited to a mental hospital four months ago, and I got the diagnosis of psychotic depression. Eventually I got better and got out of the hospital in December.
But now all the brain fuckery is coming back to me.
Do any of you have any experience with these diagnoses?
I can't think of what to do with myself anymore. I have therapy twice a week, I go to psychiatrist appointments regularly, I take the meds the right way, but I don't ever get better. I have been dealing with this bullshit since I was a 16. I'm 25 now.
I have a bunch of diagnoses: borderline personality disorder, recurrent depression disorder, derealization disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder and psychotic depression and I take four different medications (aripiprazole, alprazolam, fluoxetine and desvenlafaxine). I was commited to a mental hospital four months ago, and I got the diagnosis of psychotic depression. Eventually I got better and got out of the hospital in December.
But now all the brain fuckery is coming back to me.
Do any of you have any experience with these diagnoses?
I can't think of what to do with myself anymore. I have therapy twice a week, I go to psychiatrist appointments regularly, I take the meds the right way, but I don't ever get better. I have been dealing with this bullshit since I was a 16. I'm 25 now.
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Date: 2019-01-31 01:40 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2019-01-31 11:54 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-02-01 01:56 pm (UTC)It's gotten a lot better over time (though I'm still pretty bad at socialising). Time helps a lot, I think, things start to mellow out for most people (my brother has an ODD/BPD/bipolar diagnosis, and he really didn't start getting himself sorted till last year - he finally got a job that gives a steady routine, which made a huge improvement. He's thirty.)
Still kinda working on it (32). Taking an IT course to also try to get a career path that allows me to get my own routine set together. It's hard to make behavioural changes when you can't even develop a sleep routine or plan because your schedule changes every week. Society doesn't exactly help peoples' mental health today.