& in her steps, a flourishing

hey so, first, Scanlan tore my heart right out — mostly by agonizing the rest of the team — and also destroyed some uhh things I always assumed, which is that info can be shared out of scene and that he cared? I'm mildly upset with him but anyway w/e it's Scanlan, I'm never happy with him anyway, he was okayish on the way to improving and now I'm just wow thanks okay! have a good retirement I guess! enjoy!

it was super awkward and I'm not a fan of things like that but hey. it's lifelike. that's admirable in its own right. and I can't say I admire the changes and acknowledgements it forced out of all the characters. like. damn.

BUT ON ANOTHER NOTE:

well! I'm surprised they didn't murder him!

(now I understand truly what people meant when they said Sam was a chaotic entity lmao. the players' reaction was priceless so I deffo have that to thank him for ajshdgfkajdsdjhf)

I hate that he's pushing all the right buttons (for me AND for the team, jfc) and made me cackle and I hate him! I loathe him! I hecking adore him! he's stupid and I'm immediately fond of him and revolted all at once but most of all I hope he becomes more. wise? experienced? without ever losing that kind of — innocence about him. I hope that's what he gets out of sticking with the team! some wisdom about the world, some knowledge, while keeping some of that — that new glow about him.

it's endearing. and possibly the only reason I don't want to actually hurl him into the nine hells.

like on one hand I want Vex to stab him with an arrow because that seems like she's on that path and, listen, it would be the greatest, greatest, most hilarious thing. but also he is p funny and enjoyable. I hate that he's already growing on me. god. I'm so conflicted.