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I met this guy 3 years ago but we began dating around the 4th of July. We started out be really really good friends. I believe we sometimes see someone and want there to be a connection so badly that we sort of make it happen but tell ourselves it was natural. This guy (we'll call him Tom)is a bit older than me and wasn't my ideal kind of guy at first but he became my total buddy. Our relationship was based on trust and respect and on a smaller level still is. Though at the begining I did notice that he only had one friend (besides me)that consisted of 95% of his social life and it had probably been that way for a while. In the back of my mind I kept wondering if the way he at times seemed to be...I guess obsessed it to strong of a word but I would wonder if I was mostly a ticket out of his loneliness but how could I find that out for sure? Anyways about 2 months later he became more comfortable in letting his temper tantrums/way to gain control show. When he would do something I disagreed with and I would say it would try to always get really mad at any tiny thing I disagreed with and try to intimidate me into biting my tongue when I felt he wasn't treating me right or I disagreed. He does this every time we are together. Sometimes he'll drag it out but it seems when he has something to gain than he cuts it short.Though he shows that he has a lot of love for me. I know your probably thinking yeah you just want to believe that but I could tell that he wasn't faking how strongly he felt towards me by the people closest to him. If he really cherishes me why the tantrums that pulls us apart? How can someone do both to someone? Is it b/c he knows I'll keep coming back? Which I think is a strong possibility but if that is the case I still don't get it. I was curious what other people thought about the situation.
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| A new lonely heart |
[24 May 2007|01:16am] |
Hello, I'm 'Paige' and I'm new here. My boy trouble is I am on one end of the Indian Ocean and he's away on the other end. I think that I might have let him slip through my fingers in those few years I first knew him and hated him with a passion. To each cheeky thing he did to flare me up (usually things like slapping me on my tosh, slipping an arm around my waist or trying to push me off the second storey balcony), I'd reply with something along the lines of suggesting that he dons a spacesuit and go up Ur-anus or that isn't he due for an appointment with Satan to have a durian shoved up his nostril.
Then just last year, I realised that I like him a lot. At first, I dismissed it as just a stupid crush. But now I think it's much more than just infatuation. I don't get jealous over him regardless of his 'magnetism' or avaliability status. I don't know why but I just don't feel any resentment to him anymore in any form. To complicate matters now, I've moved away to the Land Down Under and he's still there across the ocean. There is nothing I wouldn't do (okay so maybe a few things I wouldn't do but still...) to relive my moments with him.
I've talked with him over the phone a few times before, the first time we called a truce. Then we just talked about pretty much everything. I've got his email address but it just always feels like there's nothing to talk about over the internet; we talk more face to face. I'm undecided what to do with him.
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[19 May 2007|02:49pm] |
Hey. I'm Kat - I'm always finding myself falling for the worst possibly guys, and not being able to like those who would be good for me. Right now I'm battling with feelings for my ex...And I really don't know what to do about it. If you wanna know more about that well, read my journal, cause i'm too lazy to retype it all;)
I love the name...boys are mean:P
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[22 Jan 2007|02:49pm] |
I'm Lexi, I'm fifteen, and my boyfriend just broke up with me last night. It's been really hard already because I moved away, but we were able to keep the relationship alive for three months, except for these past two weeks. I'm wondering what I did, because he's a bit of a girl-magnet, but I've never expressed any jealousy, or cheated, or done anything besides being a loving and caring girlfriend.
Every other relationship I've been in I've ended but I really loved him. So right now I'm just feeling so empty and dead. And I don't know who to turn to. I don't know what I did.
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[05 Oct 2006|03:04pm] |
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hi, my name is katie, i am 13 and i have a HUGE boy problem!!!
I am in love with two boys at the same time!
and they look alike.
i dont know what to do. i have benn in love with one of the boys for over a year, but he has a gf, and the other one is in my grade and i am nervous to talk to him.
what should i do?????
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| Am I unfaithful ? |
[24 Jun 2006|05:40pm] |
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I have 3 months with my bf and the problem is that I am not true to him. My bf is great 3 times as better as my ex the only problem is that I still have feelings for my ex. He is unfaithful, yet he has this smell that makes me go all wild, while my bf does not. Everytime I see my ex, I just think of the past, his soft smooth fragance of his face,his beard, his passionate kiss. My bf does not have those qualities but he is very caring and watches over me, calls me every day and is there. I know my bf is a great catch but why do I still want my ex? is it because I'm still close to him, we broke-up about 9 months ago. I am new to this whole bf and ex bf dilemma I never had an ex bf that I still kept in touch with.
The problem is that he knows I still like him, that I want him, desire him yet he tells me to leave. Leave because he knows that I want someone that is faithful and he is not and he will never be that. I know it and yet I want him, I had him after we broke up, knowing he was still with at least two other women. I did not care how I had him as long as I had him but then I realized it was wrong and so I stopped talking to him. Yet, after I got with my bf I decided to make peace with my ex and that is when I realized that I still like him and so did he. While, we both want different things, part of me still wants my ex. What should I do??? HELP!?
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[08 Jun 2006|06:05pm] |
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hi everyone. this community is great. i have been having alot of trouble with men lately, its pretty much all i write about. anyways i want to intoduce myself My name is missy i am 20 and i live in phoenix az. my journal is really honest and i say everything on my mind. if anyone wants to read it just leave me a comment and i'll add you. i'll post some real entries in here later. <3
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| men in my life |
[26 May 2006|10:25pm] |
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hello, im new, name:anahita problem:men
there is this one guy, i persuaded myself that i liked him since i met him, three years ago. but now that i think about it, whenever im near him, he gets on my nervs, bt when we are apart, i imagine, someone else.....someone id actully like, i asked him out and told him i loved him, he said no BITCHY!!!!!
but now i realize the one that i really liked since then was his best friend, eeeek!so now if i tell ghis friend i now he wilol think im a whore, oor like hes sloppy seconds, but its not true!what shall i do?
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| I have a huge crush on my roommate! |
[06 Feb 2006|02:55am] |
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I live with my best friend, her boyfriend, and their friend, Steve. I am so crazy about him!!! But he has a girlfriend. I believe that part of him likes me in that way, because of certain events, but he has Patricia, who's closer to his age (he's 41, I'm 22).not to mention the fact that we live together.
He knows how I feel about him, hell, everyone knows. He's very cool about it. Thankfully things aren't really weird. They were for a while. I'm really rather blue about it. The man is brilliant and wonderful, how will I ever get over him?
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| My last Days at the Dorm |
[29 May 2005|10:06am] |
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In finals week I met this guy. It sucks since my dorming experience has not been that great. A week b4 leaving the dorms I was happy and then I got all bumped out when I left the dorms, after I met this guy. See what guys make u do. He completely changed me, the weird thing is that I dont really know if I like him or is it just admiration. Nonetheless, I can't stop thinking about him and feeling bad about moving out. He even made me reconsider dorming next year, I'm not going to but may be later on the years. The last possible thing that could happen to me was to met a guy that I would fall for easily. Usually it takes me time to like someone but in less than three days I was just so impress by this guy. I don't know if its that he's older or his knowledge but whatever it is I became sprug... Now, that I'm at home I want to go back to the dorms only for this guy. That is not me I don't do anything for guys that I berly met.
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[27 May 2005|12:05pm] |
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Hey, my names jani and i'm new to the community. Why am i writing, because i had my first fight with my boyfriend yesterday and i'm really unnerved by it. I feel like i've been under a safe, soft, warm blanket all this time and suddenly he pulled it off of me and i'm suddenly freezing. It wasn't that big of a deal but it hurt me because it took me off guard. I haven't told anyone about it (nor do i want to) and i don't feel like myself, i'm just so out of it.... i just need someone to talk to.
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[21 May 2005|02:35pm] |
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hey i just joined...uhh...don't exactly know what to say...having lots of boy troubles at the moment...uhh
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| My One and Only |
[21 May 2005|12:00am] |
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I only liked one guy in high school and he turned out to like every other girl including me. I liked him and he liked me, but he also asked other girls to be his gf's and to kiss him. How can I get with a guy like that? I can't trust him, but I like him. I graduated from high school and now ending my first year of college, and I have only had one crush, who I have not seen since the second semester started. Now, I'm returning back home and I'm going to summer school. My one and only crush is going to attend the same summer school as me, and I don't know what will I tell him when I bumped into him in Summer school. I have not spoken to him, besides a few e-mails that was just to say Hi. I do not know if I should give him another chance, if he has changed?
Any advice let me know...comment
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[30 Mar 2005|03:50am] |
hi, just joined.
this is nice. everyone else is tired of my bitching.
i hold grudges for too long. that's my problem.
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[10 Mar 2005|11:32pm] |
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i hate this. why can't i ever meet anyone right for me? everyone disappoints me. why does he have to be such a loser? why has he convinced me that i should not believe a word that comes out of his mouth?
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| i feel like i've lost everything with you gone |
[22 Feb 2005|02:53pm] |
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hey i just joined this community, i dont know why, i think because i need someplace to organize my thoughts and stuff . okay so here is my situation. me and my boyfriend broke up about 1 month ago. i'm still no over him and we're are still really good friends. well i've heard through a friend that his friend asked my exboyfriend if it was okay for him to ask me out. my exboyfriend was shocked i guess and said "i guess .. it's okay... but just dont hurt her or i'll kill you" .. something like that. so i'm worried that my exboyfriend is over me. help please! thanks
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[01 Feb 2005|06:44pm] |
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| HELLO ALL. . . |
[22 Jan 2005|02:47am] |
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HELLO DEPRESSED PEOPLE! I HAVE JOINED THIS COMMUNITY BECAUSE I AM TOO NOW ONE OF THE LONELY ONES.. MY BOYFRIEND BROKE UP WITH ME.. AND I AM SAD, IM NEW TO LJ AND WELL ALL MY ENTRIES ARE ABOUT WHAT HAPPEND BETWEEN HE AND I... SAD, LET ME TELL YOU.. VERY EXTREME STUFF... SO ANYONE OUT THERE FEELING THE SAME PAIN WANT TO GIVE ME ADVICE, OR LAUGH AT ME FOR MY STUPIDITY, THEN PLEASE BY ALL MEANS DO IT, I NEED THAT THERAPY.. I AM TRUELY..UTTERLY ALONE..
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[14 Jan 2005|11:33am] |
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Hey. I have never posted here yet but I've been watching the community for a while. Anyways my name is Andrea and Im 18 and a half. I have been with my bf for 10 months now and the other night he said that he doesnt think he wants to be with one person forever and that he isn't marriage material. Like I dont want to get married now or anything but I like to hope to be with someone forever when I'm going out with them. We used to say I'll love you forever and stuff like that but now it feels like we're just temporary. He's a really good bf and i dont want to loose him and he says he still loves me and to just take things day by day. Also I never see him much anymore cuz I just got a job and he goes to college. He also wants to live in dorms one day cuz he heard that it's fun from his friends. I want someone I feel safe and secure with, but I dont want to leave him but I feel like if I dont he will leave me someday... I also kind of want to find someone who is right for me but I dont want to be single again so ugh I just have no idea what to do now. So any advice would be GREATLY appreciated.
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