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when I see a movie I want to write about it I want the world to know to see the plight of the characters and feel their tears of anguish like I do I want he film to last forever to never end for I could live in it evading the concept of reality as long as the screen flickers and the music rolls by yet they always prove to be a disappointment ending as silently as they came leaving behind only hallowed memories sounds and scenes that play only in my mind every time the screen goes black I feel a void unimaginable I’ve lost part of my life I’ve lost a friend I’ve lost my inspiration the days roll by with their capricious ways sometimes sunny sometimes not sometimes smiling people sometimes tears fall from the sky and I watch another movie sitting, hopping that this time, it will not end that the heroine will not find her prince so soon that evita will never die and sing forever or for jack and rose to dance the night away sometimes I even hold hope for the coroleone family to survive the atrocities and little Madeline to be mischievous forever yet again they all find peace within a two hour span and I still have hours to fill before the night rest my soul I’ve asked God to end my suffering many times that stupid loneliness that assaults me even in the happiest days or the biggest crowds in response he gives me silence the same silence I try to run a way from turning up the volume when Scarlet finally tells Reth she loves him or Miranda tells Andrea everyone wants to be like them God hasn’t taken my breath I’ve tried to take it on my own like Romeo does when his beloved dies or Marco Antonio in the epic tale of Cleopatra but I’m not so lucky as them I don’t have the courage to pull the trigger, or slice my veins I’m a frightened girl, who dreams of greatness like everyone of those stars that fill the screen will I?
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